Raa-o-logy

AFAX 2010 2nd day

2010-11-16T00:40:00.000+08:00

Wake up damn early, but still nt as early as initially planned haha. but neways managed to reach ard 9am. wah bloody lot of ppl sia.

Queue frm 1 end to the other side, and even extending into one of the "events room"

as u can see frm the pictures, that's the other end of the imba queue -.-

after getting in, gt another queue again for the screening for the disappearance movie sia

only manage to get like.... i think row M seats. Nt like on the first day we get imba front row seats haha

So proceed to watch The Disappearance of Suzumiya Haruhi.

i rmb years back, when i read the novels. this volume was so exciting. i read until 5~6am in the morning, 1 shot clear to the end. this volume imba. surprises at every corner. not until the last 3mins of the movie den can catch a breath. it was a hell of a ride.

was scared that the movie will suffer frm terrible decay. since season 2 for some reason didn seem to be very entertaining. recently also gt UBW movie, whose original work was so imba, but the movie adaptation wasn't THAT good, tho seems like its good enuff to get some ppl interested in the original series.

so GLAD that it turned out to be quite PERFECT lol. very entertaining, tho dun hav the excitement like when i first read it, but hw to surprise some1 who already know wads gonna happen lol. but everything was done nicely.

i like it they have those little subtle funny scenes, such as the 1 where haruhi drive kyon away frm getting warmth frm the heater, so he had to go to the CPU and warm his hands there lol.

introduction, delivery and conclusion, all wonderful.

very quite happy with the movie. despite afa x being a little quite DISAPPOINTING, i wouldn mind to see it as i paid $30 simply for disappearance haha.

Den watch the cosplay competition. To tell the truth, watching years of cosplay competitions, i think probably only 5% was good. the rest i can only say i applaud their courage xD. But its nt easy serious. Firstly, doing a imba replica of the costume is nt easy, especially when some ppl wan to chu stun. like this imba crazy gundam i saw last year

2ndly, need to do some skit/performance which is NOT CHEEZY, let alone entertaining.

Seriously, i think if a grp of girls cosplay as the k-on girls and perform a song nicely, sure win lol.

So neways, like usual, spent most of the time watching the cosplay contest feeling embarrassed for the contestants xD.

After that jus walk ard see stuffo. Many things see before liao leh, nuthin exciting also haha. ANYWAY i also jus came back frm AKIHABARA jus a few months ago, having visit the place 3 times on JCC? so its gonna take something SPECIAL to give me a shock.

This year also nt a lot of ppl cosplay, much lesser as compared to last year. Nvr took much picture, but heres 2 characters frm umineko no naku koro ni haha

Virgilia

Siesta 00

Aw why no ange ushiromiya?

also saw superpaper and eva-beatrice cosplays, but didn manage to take pictures haha.

Pretty much sums everything up haha. I think i can't be satisfied with attending AFA anymore, need to cosplay next year xD

cosplay as this lol

AFAX 2010

2010-11-13T21:28:00.000+08:00

Went over suntec today at ard 1130 liddat. wah this year the main stage so big sia. like 2.5x bigger. the lighting and sound system also imba haha. glad the increase in entrance fee was reflected in the improvement of the event haha.

first up was watching the gundam 00 movie.

I only briefly watched season 1, but i guess that was enuff information for me to watch the movie. As compared to unlimited blade works movie, i think gundam 00 did a much greater job. At least it was exciting, whereas in UBW movie, they simply animate scenes which was awesome in the visual novel randomly. Well fate was a shorter route but they also cannot do properly with entire season, hard to imagine them doing a great job with a longer route, UBW. But the animation looks damn good haha.
However the ending of gundam 00 movie was wtf. i totally dun understand lol.

After that go queue up for the maido café. this year they doing skool theme tho, so nt really maido anymore haha. But in the end nvr get to go in. After waiting for 1 hour, i think i moved 3 steps. Need to go see kana hanazawa, ( if can't see link, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O0OBIAgdyFc instead ) at the main stage haha, so left the queue =(

hmmm ok la quite an entertaining watch, but i think last year when the k-on seiyuus came, it was more fun and stuff haha.

Didn eat breakfast and lunch. bloody hungry at this point of time. walk ard abit only, see the café queue longer than before, den i decide to chiong out and head for waruku for dinner haha.

didn take much pictures this year, neither is there a lot of cosplayers. Last year was crazy. i think like almost
3 : 7 ratio last year. this year more like 0.5 : 9.5.

quite tired anyway. gonna sleep early n wake up early. need to chop seats tml to watch disappearance the movie!!!!

WHERE ARE YOU?! TAN TECK LONG

2010-11-10T23:51:00.000+08:00

A public service announcement, from LOW CHOW LONG, looking for Mr Tan Teck Long to come out for a drink.

if u ever see this msg, plz contact 97685977 or drop a msg at lowxuanzhi@gmail.com.

tho i doubt it haha.

hmm maybe upcoming holiday i do a ala-ah liang-super sunday-"super mission"

ktv and it's etiquettes

2010-10-01T23:28:00.002+08:00

haha that episode was so enjoyable. absolutely can relate with all those stuff they mentioned haha. but i think sometimes i also forget to observe the ktv etiquette fully haha oops. at least my understanding of the ktv etiqutte that is.
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Basics such as spamming 8~10 of songs u wan to sing, worst still when its all frm the same artist, even worst still is when u pick all the popular songs, suppose to be like can only pick a few popular songs per person; every1 loves/want to pick those songs too. and summore its nt like others can pick the same song if it was already picked, thats also another unspoken rule. at least for me, i feel like by doing that u like tryin to 踢馆 liddat haha
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Jump queue and insert songs is no need say 1. if any1 thinks there is nothing wrong den i dunno wad to say lol. well of course unless that person sit 1 corner for 5 years nvr sing any songs or that he or she came late den still acceptable.
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Another impt etiquette some ppl fail to observe is singing song picked by some1 else. sometimes ppl sing right frm the start as if it was picked for them to sing lol. even if they come in halfway, uninvited, also quite as frustrating. ESPECIALLY if that song was one of those performance-type songs, which as said by xiao S "为了要慲足自己的欲望", dreaming that u are 蕭敬騰 or something lol. If it was a normal-type song den can mix sing no issue, given that they do it properly.
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i dun mean have to sing nice. come on we are singing for fun nt holding a concert, but wad i meant by doing it properly is that u observe the etiquettes.

Like the person picking the song should be allowed to sing the earlier half of the first verse, den followed by the 2nd guy for the later half.

Den the first guy will sing the first half of the chorus, den followed by the 2nd guy.

Den here the 2nd guy have to start the 2nd verse first, cos usually at the 2nd verse, the 2nd part will be zhng'ed, so the better part should give the guy who picked the song. Den usually the first person will be happy with wadeva order the rest of the song turns out, well still gt 1 last part.

usually, prolly all, the song will have the most imba part, like maybe imba high, imba technique, or wadeva other shitz. obviously that part should give the guy who picked it right? but some ppl jus ks man. lol. having said that, somehow i gt a feeling i probably did that at least a few times before xD.
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well of course the above standard format is nt absolute. if both party or grp of ppl are very familiar with the song, they can sing the song their own way, doing beautiful blendings and harmonies, or echoing after certain select lines; stretto, etc, which is very nice and fun.
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sure there is more but lol, enough blabbing frm me. the video alone is pretty "nuff said". time to meditate.

how would u respond?

2010-06-09T01:28:00.002+08:00

A: ... because ... (yada yada).. which is why we have to conclude that this is the cause of your problems.

B: now im upset.

*silence for 5 sec*

A: errr.... is there anything else?

i learned something new

2010-05-12T20:23:00.000+08:00

A : ..... damn angry. XXXX bluff me, say 3rd storey! Turn out wad u know? They count frm the ground floor lol! only 2 units above!

I learned something new today.

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2010-05-09T00:49:00.000+08:00

http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/NightmareFuel

http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/HighOctaneNightmareFuel

scary ending scene of Watanagashi-hen

2010-05-09T00:38:00.001+08:00

like i mentioned before, higurashi is a very scary anime

back in sec skool when i first watch it, it was precisely this scene, that made me stop watching higurashi

it took me... at least 5 years later, which is recently, den i manage to finish watching higurashi.

higurashi is fantastic, despite the fact it was suffering frm adaptation decay. i dun even wan to think how its like in the original sound novel....

neways jus now i reading tv tropes and stumbled upon this

holy shit.

i can still remember that scene clearly. it was past midnight, im in my room. my computer is against the wall, so im facing the wall and there is a lot of empty space behind me ( u know wad this means especially when watching/reading scary stuff )

i off the lights, there is complete darkness. i even put my earpiece on.

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after watching that scene.... i didn dare to turn my head. i dun even turn my body back. i stood up from my chair, walk backwards to my bed, lie down, cover myself with my blanket, and fall asleep 3 hours later

i clicked on the link to the person's profile and saw his profile. the dp might look stupid/idiotic normally. but if u know the above mentioned scene like i do, when i see that dp, i feel a chill down my spine. reading the above description brings back my memory of that night again.

im damn curious to see for myself how that scene was done in the manga version ( even more for the sound novel ), but i scared i cannot recover from the shock......

*edit* seriously it is really as it says...

" .....And if you're feeling brave, feel free to take a look at the High Octane Nightmare Fuel page. "

i think i replayed this more den 30 times

2010-05-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

for some reason i find this piece so nice.

a certain type of ppl that i dun like.

2010-05-04T00:10:00.000+08:00

is my style of speech terrible? when my voice reaches u, do u wish that u could shut ur ears and keep out the nonsense that im spouting?

are my ideas, opinions, often different from what most think, to such extent it seems like im disagreeing simply becos it's a different from others?

from wad i can recall, so far i met 2 ppl who are like as i mentioned above, and i seriously wish they can stop spitting shit out of their mouth. total nonsense sia. cannot stand listening. its like i will minus 200hp per sec if i hear their crap, more painful than sitting/standing beside some1 in the congested mrt with a ~~terrible bo~~ strong reiatsu.

but for some reason, the things they say, sounds like things i would say.

hmmmm

do i hate the things they say cos we are similar? or is it becos the things they say are really shitz? and do i also spew out such nonsense as well?

i hope not.

well at least i dun think that everything in the world is a conspiracy lol.

why are ppl so evil

2010-04-19T18:05:00.002+08:00

if ppl are nice, we dun hav to lock our house when we leave the hse. If ppl are nice, we can even enter the neighbour's hse to grab some extra instant noodle if we are hungry, jus dun forget to return them another day. if ppl are nice, we wun shouldn see so much of 1 man 1 car on the streets. if ppl are nice, we dun hav to check our pocket for our wallet in crowded places. if ppl are nice, countries dun hav to spend so much $$ on military for defence, when no wars are gonna occur.

if ppl are nice. my house dun need to change windows and install better, more secured window grills

cos my hse jus gt broken into for the 2nd time this year i think.

-$500 frm japan funds =(. maybe i need to chiong ot

why?

2010-03-23T01:29:00.001+08:00

WADS WRONG WITH MY COMPUTA Y CANNOT VIEW YOUTUBE VIDEO

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*edit* zzz. right after i posted this, the problem fixed itself.

*edit2* WTF AFTER ADDING THE EDIT, THE PROBLEM CAME BACK. STUPID SHIT.

baka testo anime vs novel

2010-03-21T01:37:00.000+08:00

Im nt sure if thats the actual cause, but if this is why i got my headache for 2 days, i wun be surprised.
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Before reading the novel, my impression of baka testo was that it is quite a funny series. Tho the summoner test war thingy was quite lame. The fights were decided by purely the power level. So like a being with 90 will lose to one with power 100, its nt even a close fight. There is no involvement of techniques, strategies to influence and affect the fights. However i let the fact it had such a crappy fighting system pass, cos the comedy was very entertaining haha. Not forgeting Hideyoshi haha. ~~She~~He alone was enuff a reason to watch baka test =D

Anyway after reading most of baka testo vol 1, I realise the anime is basically fillers. Or it could be that the anime studio took materials frm beyond vol 1 and animate them instead. cos after 10 epi, they dun even cover 5 chp of vol 1.

den suddenly in ep 11, they rush thru 2 summoning wars. Like in the case of umineko, they simply summarise the fight, leave out all the little little epic moments of each characters. Alot, of such moments.

the fighting between summoned beings was also nt some simple power level vs power level affair. The beings can exhibit skills and abilities. Dodge attacks and stuff.

In the novel, they showed why Yuuji was called a genius frm his foresight, tactical intelligence, ability to think on his feets, and stuff. And not like wads shown on the anime, to be able to score well for exam if he actually wants to, thats like depicting a totally different thing.

However i also feel that, becos after reading the source material, i am unable to form an unbiased judgement cos i am pro-source material. hardly, if nt nvr had i enjoyed an adaptation more than the original. I think if i didn read vol 1, i might still enjoy ep 11, or at least have no complains.

All these effort , wad for?

2010-03-14T00:59:00.000+08:00

Sometimes ppl jus dun appreciate.
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* this must be why my GP fail, i think this entry poorly convey my true msg *

my stupid driving instructor. I hate him. how is it that I can driving smoothly when he is talking on the phone, and chu stunt when he is 'guiding'.
how to turn into the main road, when he at the same time tell me to stop my car, becos the main road gt cars on the lane i entering, tho they like so far away?
Hw to stop to allow the car on the main road to cross when he tell me move? - (2)
Same situation again, this time i move, dun wait. he jam the brake and ask if I looked before turning, even tho the car was further away than in eqn (2). I say still far he say I so slow hw to make the turn.
the next turn, i see no car and turn fast fast, den he say y so fast, den I say if not hw to make the turn.
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There this one time, I was accelerating, den he say turn left.
siao so last min, brake ah clutch ah gear ah gas, den some stupid car cut into my lane, zham brake, den car die. I think that was the 2nd time driving on the road.
whenever I made 'mistakes' like that, or those above, he will say, "u must do as I say, not make ur own decision, u now learning Hw to drive." even tho sometimes he the sentence dun really apply to the situation, another case of old man saying their prepared speech upon the triggering of certain key words/events.
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on the road I ask him if its okay to crosslane, cos gt car on the other side. he say no, den I slow down so I can change lane after him. den turns out the guy slow down wan let me go. but Mr old man didn say change, later he say u so slow hw to change or gt car cannot see den ho sey. 1 sec later he say, y u nvr change lane?
den he say, "u always waiting for instructions ah, u drive u must know, cannot wait for me to tell u." wad happen to listen to u and dun make decisions on my own.

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Maybe the truth is i really am doing alot of shitz mistake, thinkin that im right. the old man, put his call on hold, stop eating his pear, jus so he can point out my mistakes. wan to make sure I drill it to my head that its wrong and I shouldn't do that. even if I start to hate him or dislike me, say bad stuff abt him to potential students, he dun care, he does his job as an instructor, correcting mistakes.

if he wanted to, he could jus say "dame yo" and smile. Dun need to waste effort scolding ppl. den if I pass driving only after 5 attempts, I will tell others that its my lack of skill, nt the instructor fault and recommend him to others cos hes nice.
but he choose to scold and drill it in my head. Even if its thx to him that I pass on the first attempt, I will tell ppl to stay away frm him.

all these effort, wad for?

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its easy to be the nice guy. agree with everything. be okay with anything. compared to putting in effort to pick up faults, disagree, make decision, argue, shout, scream, fight.

in the end, u might, might achieve, complete, learn, improve, enjoy, stuff with the nice guy. and u like the nice guy.

with the bad guy, his 'improvements', 'suggestions', 'ideas', 'decisions' might, might screw some stuff up. and if u see him on the street, u spit on him. all these effort, wad for?

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Are ideals and ethics worth nothing?

lol at the irony. my phone crash halfway when I was typing this, and the first thing that came to my mind was, all these effort, wad for?

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2010-03-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

Woohooo. After 3? or 4 years? Postpone postpone delay delay until no mention of it and slowly fading into oblivion. Show random live footage to generate hype for nothing. Release tons of games and nonsense tryin suck as much $$$ frm the fans until they die. Do some comical spin-off instead of doing the actual season 2. Create the rumor of season 2 but den own us with a re-run of season 1 wtf. Den "surprise" us with a season 2 that is mixed with the "re-run" of season 1. But den it wasnt very nice, in fact i didn finish it. ENDLESS EIGHT WTF. I WATCHED THEM ALL. kyon-kun denwa.

After all that nonsense, im still gonna read vol 10 if its ever coming out. Haven drop the series. Genius kadokawa.

Den now finally gt news on haruhi volume 10. Seems that he is "readying the novel". baka-tsuki removed haruhi frm their site awhile ago =(. I guess gotta buy the books.... Like at least 5 years before they translate it into english. Or 3 years later when i can read jap novel!?!?

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Some facts about wow

I hate talking to old ppl, well most of em.

2010-02-22T20:45:00.001+08:00

Old ppl are supposed to be wise and experienced and stuff. When they tok, words of gold come out of their mouth. Each story they say contains valuable lessons of life. Passing on their knowledge to the next generation.

But some old ppl, they think cos they lived for so long, and have seen it all, done it all, thinks that.... how should i say it, i cant think of a word or phrase to describe what i wan to say, but i'll try by using examples.

They think what they know is absolute. They disregard wadeva others say. They accept no new concepts/ideas.

They think cos they believed/think wadeva XXX for their whole life, it has gotta be true/still the same. Den if u tell them that either its wrong or it has changed or wadeva as long as u dun agree with the old dude, they wun process it.

Its like they dun even disagree. They jus brush it off and continue with their own story. U tell them something new, which makes wadeva he wanted to say irrelevant, but he will still continue his original story that he had in mind. Its nt even wad he wants to say, its a fixed story to say whenever certain "keywords" appear.

Conversations with such old ppl, is not considered communication. Its a monologue. Its not even conversation, they are jus looking for keywords in our speech, which they have stories they can tok about.

So like if u are in taxi, den the old cabby ask if u are doing NS. Starting he ask u wad unit u in, wad vocation, wad rank. At first u think its a conversation, hes jus looking for u to say the keywords thats in his database.

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Old man: So u in XYZ unit ah?

Me: ya.

Old man: wah there xiong! Last time i also there.

Me: Now nt so bad liao, nowadays blah-blah-blah...... So no xiong anymore liao.

Old man: Ya lor, u all have it hard ah, so xiong that place.

Me: No la, like i said now its nt so bad liao. blah-blah-blah-blah

Old man: I also there before, wah XXXX the YYYYY, ZZZZZZ, tough hor?

Me: *plugs my earpiece in my left ear* ......... Ya its very xiong.

Old man: *continues his story about xiong XYZ unit.

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Wads worst is they keep goin on and on and on and on. Not say 1 story to another, they replay the same story ova n ova again.

I find it common in many old ppl.

Could it be some mental decay problem old ppl face? Some disease? 老人痴呆？ H3N1?

I hope im not like that unknowingly, or become liddat in the future.

But of course gt some they can engage in real conversation, which is wad i enjoy. I can actually ask them questions and they answer me. Learn frm them. Instead of telling me that the Earth is actually flat.

Lighting Thief Review and my general thoughts about movie.

2010-02-21T03:53:00.003+08:00

"People say its nice."

Xuan Zhi says its not very nice. The action scenes, okay~ They were done pretty neat, tho no 1337 fighting/kungfu skillz shown, jus simple, exciting, action scenes done well. Well except that in times it didn make sense. Like how the water guy, owned the girl who lived her whole life in the 'wadeva camp' training n training, without training. Oh cos he touched the water? Ok i buy that.

Plot? The world is in danger, and it needs to be saved. And it was saved. Ok to be honest it was presented in a enjoyable way. But when u start to take a closer look, hmmm. First why are they training to fight with swords and bows? Wun guns work fine? So only the magical swords and bows work against the mythical creatures? Well not like they explained it but wadeva, i buy that too. But why are they training in the first place? Preparing for Ragnarok? Oh wait, thats a different mythology... Wadeva, training, yes training, defend against danger frm unexpected mythical creatures.

Zeus set a deadline, for the thief to return the bolt, or else there shall be war. ppl think its the water boy who stole the bolt.

What makes ppl think its the water boy? Who is responsible?

And so i tot this movie is gonna be about the water boy leveling up experience and his tough journey to Mount Olympus, fighting all sorts of nonsense in his trip, den fighting the final boss and end of story. But no, he dun even need to level up.

So he is in danger. Take him to the camp, and train him. He receives no training, and was thrown into a practice fight, grp fight summore. He altho faces some difficulties, but eventually owned one of the better fighters ard, without training.

How is that possible? Why?

Neways the movie tried to be smart, the plot didn advance as i tot it will. He decide to chu stunt. He want to rescue his mom frm hades, instead of looking for zeus to convince him to not start a war. He thinks that nice guy hades will let his mom go when he realise he gt the wrong guy.

Neways he decide to leave ultimately. And we saw no efforts made to bring him back.

It was said that, hades will jus kill the water boy and his mom even if he realise he was mistaken. And with the SUSPECT dead, and with no clues of where the bolt is, isnt the war all but certain?

So they all jus relac. He followed his instinct and everything will solve by themselves.

Neways, how the hell did zeus lose his bolt anyway?

Den the lighting thief, damn heng ah. He didn even look for the water to deliver the bolt to hades. The water boy came by himself.

He didn even deliberately frame the water boy so that he will eventually come to the camp. And didn deliberately tip hades that the boy have the bolt. So that Hades will kidnap his mother to exchange for the bolt. So that water boy will try to find a way to the underworld, which eventually lead to the waterboy coming to find the lightning thief himself. It all happened coincidentally.

Not like the lighting thief had any 1337 skillz cept a pair of flying boots. And with that he stole zeus' bolt...

Ok his adventure to collect the 3 jewels was quite interesting. Tho the action scenes... hmmm simple but enjoyable.

Hades kena owned by his wife with the bolt. And the water boy can parry away lightning bolts frm the lighting thief. Hmm i guess this shows the difference in ability? I wonder wad training he did which made him so skillful.

2 mins to travel that huge distance. I guess time must move real slow in Olympus. Seriously, cant they say he gt 20mins more?

And peace is ensured. He returns to the camp, to train to fight, for wad? So he can protect himself frm random mythical creatures. Hey since when he needed training? At the most jus carry a water jerry can or something.

I think im complaining too much. But i know im nt blindly biased against movies cos there are movies that i enjoy so much i brought the dvds to support whoever responsible for producing it. Its not like i only watch anime and deny movies -.-

The problem with movies is that its so short, there is limited time to squeeze alot of things inside. No time for leveling up, no time for development of relationship, no time for fillers, no time for anything. Only gt time for summary.

I guess the only thing i can say is, without love it cannot be seen. I jus dun like watching movie in general, thats why i always find faults in movie and overlook the good parts. But i still recognise a good movie when i see one, or maybe jus my taste is different frm others =D.

Do u like forest gump? I do.

some funny shit i saw ytd.

2010-02-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

The following gt 2 parts to it, read both.

First, there was an entry on uncyclopedia

Den there was an article to analyst it

Fisher Price: A Retrospective

Almost died frm stomach cramp.

Gintama 53

2010-02-01T17:49:00.000+08:00

Gintama being the anime king of comedy, i didn expect an episode like episode 53. It was very touching. I was eating my dinner at the market while watching this, but cos i finished my dinner in 10mins, the episode only halfway thru, but cos the episode was so.... * fail vocab, cant find a word to describe this thought *, so i didn pause and bring home watch, watching there instead.

Den so weird la, after watching the touching scene, den realise im still at the market. Luckily im nt some emo shit or else i cry at the market den will be really wtf lol. But it brought out feelings like at the last episode of chrono crusade, maybe at 30% of that. Btw, i forgot why The Girl Who Leap Through Time was touching or if its actually not and i jus recalled wrongly.

I liked the cool analogies the firefighters use with reference to their job, toking about fire, being the all-consuming terror which can turning anything, precious things, into ashes in an instant. All these ashes, of fallen comrades, people they were unable to save, are all piled upon the backs of firefighters, which they are responsible for.

Wonderful episode.

Seletar camp's fave Ah ho at taman jurong!

2010-01-25T21:46:00.001+08:00

Rmb them? Ah ho moved to taman jurong food center liao for almost 6 months, but only recently ~~food~~ found by Mr Chervin.

Too bad nvr sell my teh bing anymore liao haha. Cant forget during first 6 months in seletar camp ( course dun nt included la ), always go down boatshed do stuff, den will buy the teh bing frm there. Everytime different colour, sometime is classic colour, some times like coffee colour, sometimes like red colour. So exciting to see wad colour it will be each time i buy lol.Weird thing is that it tastes the same.

Their menu quite limited, they cant cook chilli crabs even if u bring them the crabs nemore =(, but nvm, at least gt the classics.

Like the fried rice, hor fun, bah beng... others forget liao hahahaha. Come down and see for urself la haha.

So i ordered hor fun

Look at it, overflowing

Me ordered hor fun cos it was the first dish i tried at ah ho.

That time was doing work in camp, den rain ah. Trapped at the boat shed there, dinner time, hungry. So i decide to randomly order something.

So i ask them, wads the menu? Den the auntie shout at me, "No menu la! U wan wad den u order!". Something liddat la. Very fierce haha. So i try see if they can do hor fun. Yes they do! Hmm den i wan chu stunt summore, hokkien mee? Also have?? Hmm so wide variety, dunno the standard good anot.

And man, it was imba.

Summore the weather so cold, den stranded. Den the hor fun and the hokkien mee overflowing, and so hot, so nice. Unforgettable experience.

Den lifestealer ordered the classic bah beng.

Damn nice. The pork dunno hw they cook 1, fragrant, the taste nt too excessive. Den the plain rice, nt polluted by any sauce, eat with the pork, woah perfect mix. Simple dish, imba taste.

Actually wan to mention about the fails of chervin, but nvm la, forget it haha, since he bring me to ah ho haha.

Today ran frm my hse to lakeside mrt, damn tiring. I cant run. Me weak in running. Running sux.

Like as if i needed to run to remind myself that, but gt physio tml ah, must run see if my back gt improve anot.

Nt so much pain, but thats becos i didn run that much and that fast =.=

Still, it still tightens up, until now i still can feel liddat at my back.

Neways, yay i passed FTT. Hurray.

I - II spoilers up to EP05 ANALYSIS of UMINEKO NO NAKU KORO NI EP01 : Legend of The Golden Witch (anime version) part 2

2010-01-25T16:04:00.001+08:00

2nd green question frm I -I

"Did maria recieve any letter in EP05? Gotta check when re-reading ep05?"

No there was none, the first letter came after battler's discovery of the gold.

hmm wad does this say? In the content of the letter, it congratulates battler for solving the epitaph. That means its nt written way in advanced, it can only be written after erika's announce to the siblings about the discovery of the gold. So we can narrow down the possible people who is responsible for the letter.

Well lets leave that for EP05 discussion, woah like damn far away haha.

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Topic 2: Rudolf's own death prediction?

Firstly, when he meant that, he might die. Did he mean,

1) imma die, cos XYZ, therefore imma tell u guys while i can
2) damn there is something i wanna tell u guys. Dun kill me after u know the truth xD

Initially wad i tot was scenario 1, but apparently in ep05, he said that its about battler's birth, and he wants to talk about it with the whole family.

Frm the way Rudolf talks, as well as kyrie and battler, im sure he could hav meant jokingly.

"Dun kill me. Battler, actually, Kyrie is ur real mom / Asuma is nt ur mom."

Something liddat. Neways i gt a feeling that ryukishi07 will surprise us with a truth that nobody expected.

Cos since if its scenario 1, im sure any dude will asap tell battler or kyrie wadeva he wanted to say if he felt that his live was seriously in danger.

So doesnt this means that Rudolf's proclamation doesnt help? !@#$EWFDSF

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Topic 3 : Wad effect would there be on natsuhi upon the knowledge of the existance of the hidden gold?

Cos we know that there are several conditions that is constant. Like since kinzo is always dead before the game, the family must know about it, GENJI at least, so its almost certain that the EP05 natsuhi is present in all the episodes, unless on such occasions that, some1 else discovered kinzo's death first, hide the truth, got some1 else to pretend as him, handle the corpse. that would be a tough job.

But in EP05, i think natsuhi is unaware of the existance of the gold, despite believing in the power of the witch =.=.

But wad about Krauss? Is it a constant that he had that single one winged eagle gold ingot? I believe that we can assume that for now. Cos if we use the, "letter is done by natsuhi/krauss" theory, if krauss KNEW that the gold existed, that would allow him to conjure a plan of such. Normally it wouldn cross any1's mind to fake a letter frm a "witch" blah blah blah......

But cos he was aware that the GOLD DOES EXIST, regardless of who it came frm, only den was he able to think of a plan of such.

Cos the letter dun jus distract the siblings frm krauss. if they actually find the gold, it will even save all of them frm their problems.

It doesnt jus solve his problem, it even makes him richer.

Therefore, any1 with the knowledge of the existence of the gold, is a suspect for the one responsible for the letter.

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Topic 4: The Head's Ring

How was kinzo's body 'settled'? Will they bury the ring with him? Will they keep it? Will Krauss keep it since he is the heir?

When maria takes out the letter, every1 is shocked. But no1 was shock to the extent of OVER 9000!!!!!!!!!, cos they tot that the ring was buried with kinzo, or worst still, supposedly in their possession. They didn react that way. That means thief is out of the picture.

Krauss and natsuhi and the servants and nanjo all didn react like, USO DA! ITS ABSOLUTELY IMPOSSIBLE, THERE IS NO ARGUMENT! IN FACT I'LL SHOW U. THE RING IS HERE! oh, oops.

Therefore, i think i can almost conclude that its absolutely some1 with the knowledge of the existence of the gold, responsible for the letter.

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Hmm den where is Beatrice in the picture? How to allow her to exist?

I - I spoilers up to EP05 ANALYSIS of UMINEKO NO NAKU KORO NI EP01 : Legend of The Golden Witch (anime version) part 1

2010-01-19T15:47:00.049+08:00

He has already announce that all the clues needed to solve the entire mystery is provided, now its time to defeat ryukishi07.

My plan now is to rewatch ep 01 to 04 via anime, den re-read the sound novel frm ep05 to ep01.

Let it begin.
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Topic 1: beatrice's letter?

Question 1: Who gave maria the letter?

Possible suspects : Genji, nanjo, natsuhi, more?
Impossible suspects :
To be reinforced with facts when reading SN.
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Question 2: Wad is the purpose of the letter?

I guess we gotta try and imagine What effects/differences would the letter create? Compare with how things will be

like if the letter didn appear.

Den there another part of the letter, the head's seal on the wax, does this means it is absolutely done by krauss' family / servants / nanjo ; people who know that kinzo is dead.

Did maria recieve any letter in EP05? Gotta check when re-reading ep05

So for the time being we assume that its the 'people who know that kinzo is dead', or at least some or one of them,

who is responsible for the letter, so wad effect did they expect to create, wad is the motive?

If there was no letter....
The 3 younger siblings will try to get some $$$ frm krauss, with their talks about recognising him as the head blah blah blah. As shown in ep01, he manage to fight them off. Den in some other ep i forgot which 1, kyrie talk about the responsibiliy of the caretaker of the head blah blah blah. Although those games are parallel worlds, this represent possibilities. Neways Which implies that their plan, 'missing Kinzo', is nt foolproof, they must have taken that into consideration.

In that situation, to be exact, at that moment, it has to be proven that kinzo still exist, is the motive of the younger siblings. Cos they arent waiting for 7 years later, they wan to expose krauss now and threathen him to giving them the money that all 3 of them need urgently.

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So how will the witch's letter help? If we assume that its the 'people who know that kinzo is dead' who are behind the letter.

A distraction? To divert the topic of whether kinzo is dead or not, or even destroy the idea?

The letter announce to every that, Beatrice, exist. She call herself alchemist-adviser of the house. Y nt jus
witch? I wonder how its writen in jap.

And the letter says that, '...but, today, Kinzo-sama sentenced the end of that contract. '

Ah isnt that prove that Kinzo is alive?

And den, 'As for that condition, he will return me all the gold by the end of the contract. And as an interest, I can accept everything of the Ushiromiya family.'

With that, doesnt it makes the 3 siblings panic? The $$$ that they were eyeing for, snatched away under their nose.

'However, Kinzo-sama, in order to give a chance to leave the wealth and fortune to everyone, added a special clause. Only when that clause is satisfied, I’ll eternally lose my right to collect the gold and the interest.” 'And if any1 can solve the riddle, and find the GOLD, beatrice will have to give up the rights to the shits of ushiromiya family.....

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WHO CARES ABOUT USHIROMIYA IF WE FIND 10 TONS OF GOLD?

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I think this is a wonder plan that works for krauss and natsuhi.

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But umineko is not just a mystery novel. And i am a supporter of magic. How to put beatrice into the picture? How does she exist and wad is her motives?

Now i understand how battler feels when he tries to explain the murders logically; denying magic and therefore proposing that a human is responsible for the crimes, but dun wan suspect any of the other 17 people on the island. Terrible feeling, dunno if i should jus drop that line of thought, or change it to suit to my liking, but find it impossible to do so.

Ah den thats when Ange comes into the picture, and tell battler that there is no need care about who being the culprit. Even if its Shannon den so be it. cos she wants her onii-chan to end this stupid game go home asap. I think its like when subduing some dude who punched u for no reason earlier, u decide to jus restrict his movements and be careful not to hurt him cos later he cannot go to work tml. lol shitz analogy? That being said, its magic that allow ange to travel to this world and help her brother. In that sense its obvious that she recognise magic. But in this case battler gotta end this game to return to ange, so jus go ahead and deny magic, beatrice's magic to be exact. It might be impossible for my right eye to see random rainbows, but who says its impossible for gucci's pol lubricated eye?

Den we have erika, who represent the readers, we see this murder case as an interesting mystery for us to solve. There is no need to be sad for the characters who die, as it is nessesary for the mystery novel. With no regard for any consequeces of any actions, cos we exist outside of the gameboard.

Shit i drifted quite far liao. Taking a break frm this brainstorm.

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The letter 'written' by some1 with the knowledge of kinzo's death, it is written with the intention to help assist in the cover up of kinzo's death.

Find out possible and impossible suspects for giving maria the letter.

Umineko no naku koro ni EP 05 : End of The Golden Witch

2010-01-19T01:04:00.000+08:00

ahh maybe the story will end up as wad i've guessed in EP 02, battler will understand the world completely and recreate a final world where every1 live happily ever after.

EP 05 is the scariest 1 so far even tho they are the least fantasy-like; humans are scarier than demons and witches.

So, beatrice is gone for good? She died?

Damn lot of questions in my head la.

Even tho i enjoy EP 05 alot, i dun really know wad to say. Lets come back to it when i do my 1337 analysis posts.

Umineko : Witches and Woodlands

2010-01-11T02:09:00.000+08:00

Haha this is quite funny. Especially the part when Dlanor and Battler was arguing about the rules. But end too suddenly la, well this is after all jus some fanfic, cant demand it to be like a few chapters long haha.

umineko ep 05 comments as im reading.

2010-01-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

Wtf? jump off 3 story building? i know parkour/freerunning ppl can do magic la. But an untrained like Battler? Wad nonsense.

*ping pong*

Contradiction/nonsense spotted. When battler join the game after taking a break. It had already reached the 2nd night. Jus for fun, they decide to replay the game jus for Battler to see. the piece-battler's action was controlled by bern. As shown frm epitaph part, when battler was surprised that his piece-self was able to solve it, bern told him that she was controlling him, that why he could solve it. Plus when lambda asked battler why piece-battler could see kinzo, he replied XXX, and bern said that she also said the same thing jus now.

So, battler has gt no influence to the game until when he joined back, which is, the 2nd night.

But now we see him defending natsuhi, about the missing kinzo theory. Which goes against erika. Bern controlled piece-battler shouldn hav done that wad, its illogical. Is that wad actually happen? That piece-battler actually proposed that idea? Bern most certainly didn appear like she did that herself, tho she was laughing at erika's defeat lol. So is Battler actually affecting the game?

The author has created a plot hole!

Lets see if we will reach back the exact same situation when the EP 05 reach the 2nd night again.

*many pages later*

Fuck i gt denied by Battler.

"That wasnt me. Lambda was controlling him (piece-battler)"

Shit. Why that didn cross my mind lol.

Btw ep 05 is really scary at times.
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Wad bullshit? lambda stopped cornelia frm being able to using the red? nonsense. plz explain

Yay another possible plot hole, tryin my best to defeat the author =D.
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Wow lambda is pretty good. How to explain the letter and the knock sia.
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So is piece-beatrice a true representive of beatrice or jus a piece controlled by lambda?
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tho i dun rmb all the red truth, but the alibi created frm the paper seal can be recreated by placing the shit back wad.
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Shit im denied again. Duct tapes and other godly methods were used to to make sure there is no loophole
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Damn the author answers all my questions, well cept the part where lambda could prevent Cornelia frm revealing the red truth that the window was nvr opened the even once during 'that period of time'.
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Stolen frm here

I concur as well. That was one heck of a scary scene. It took a few sec before i recovered frm the shock.

i love being at home.

2009-12-29T15:46:00.000+08:00

damn heavy. When i gt home i gt bruises on my hand, wtf. im sure obms are much heavier. But now i can drink all da shitz milk tea muahahaha.

Took a picture of the DEMOLITION of JURONG ENTERTAINMENT CENTER. Sad.

Used to eat long john silvers after Dr. Marcus's lessons every sat.
Used to hope for free food when my sister was still working at kfc.
Tasted the amazing OLD mac mayo for the first time at the mac there.
Yj and wq used to giv the combo birthday treat of meal + lan there.
Kbox and kpool there.
WON MY PSP FROM STACKER THERE ALSO
Enjoyed free air-con at the ice-skating ring.

Zan nen.

How long more is the mega shopping center gonna take before its build man. They dug such a big hole and left it there for more den 2 years now is it?

Btw htc hero's camera is pretty goood. I take pictures of book and the words are very clear. imba, no need to take notes anymore haha.

But its pretty laggy when browsing thru the gallery. Oh and the music player too. AND OH CANT WATCH VIDEOS?! The youtube app also cannot play all videos, why ah. And its nt very user friendly leh. I took like a whole day to get used to it, and now i only manage to do basic stuff. The settings, special functions, shitz, still figuring them out. Virtual qwerty keyboard sux, however im reaching 1337 typing speed liao anyway lol. The internet browser is a lil slow.

Altho its mostly complains so far, HTC hero is damn good, lol. Lazy to tok about wads good about it, too many to list liao haha.

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Went to EOY anime shitz on 261209 at national library. It was quite bad. The booths/stall gt nothing much to see, they all jus selling their artworks, some badges, some figurines. There are TONS of TONS of cosplayers tho. However for some reason yj didn bring a camera. I wasnt in the mood to look at the cosplay either. The main stage gt performance after performance so we actually spend most of the time there. Watching. However this year de performance generally nt very nice.

Firstly, wad the hell, they hire 2 mc who know nuts about anime. Cant even pronounce basic jap words properly.

Its like having a random uber pro gamer on ur team, but he nvr played the game that u guys are about to compete in before.

The solo cosplay is quite boring. They come out, the mc jus joke about their costumes, let them do 3 pose, and next contestant plz.

The group cosplay is more entertaining, but not amazing.

Quite a few song performances. Many are pretty good.

Left for dinner. Today was nt very fun.

Initially my plan was to go for the day event and den fuck off and join s24 for dinner at thai village, but yj force me to watch the concert as well.

I was afraid that i wun enjoy the concert.

In the end, it turn out that, i enjoy the concert more than the day event as well.

Im nt saying that the day event was THAT bad lol. The mini-concert by Yui Makino was very good actually.

I guess shes not a professional for nothing.

Ok time for HIMAWARI, wheeeee

TIPS: Anti-Mystery vs. Anti-Fantasy

2009-12-22T11:26:00.000+08:00

I wonder wad kind of thoughts people such as this author, have in their mind. Wad goes on in their head. To be able to churn out stuff like this shit below.
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Regarding Anti-mystery and Anti-fantasy　　

竜騎士０７

In EP3 of this time, I tried to change the catch copy phrase at the back cover, 'is reasoning possible or impossible', to 'anti-mystery vs anti-fantasy.

I think it's already comprehensible to those who have finished this EP3 but, the world view of 'Umineko no Naku Koro Ni' goes just as this catch copy.

Well, mystery and fantasy are probably words you hear oftenly but, when it comes to and anti-mystery and anti-fantasy, I think there are not much chances for it to be heard.
What would be the general ideas behind 'anti'?
That's what I'd humbly like to enumerate here.

Regarding anti-fantasy, probably there isn't anything special to talk about.
In this world we live, fantasy and such are impossible.
No matter what kind of fancy fairy-tale it is, in the end, they are just a work of fiction.
Even if it is realistic, they have exaggerations in some things and are only politcal and made-up stories.

Don't you tell me that you seriously believe that Earth was made in 7 days by the Creator? Or that Izanagi-no-Mikoto (see wikipedia) created the Japanese islands with his spear...? it's obvious that we can explain those with the combination of the big-bang with meteorites and the rising of lands by means of the interference of the (tectonic) plates, huh.

To the ones who are able to openly declare that during the classes of Japan history and world history, be welcome, I present you the world of the 'anti-fantasy'.
The people who pretend to believe those things to keep the appearances, for being able to read the atmosphere, even though they don't believe it, too, please, be welcome to the world of 'anti-fantasy'.

There's no way witches and magic do exist.
In everything, we can expose the truth through reasoning.
Most of people should believe that.
'Anti-fantasy'.
In other words, that is our basic format, the common sense.

You guys would never surrender to 'Umineko no Naku Koro Ni'.
Because there's no way witches and magic do exist.

Such an extremely natural explanation for 'anti-fantasy' ends here and finally let's start to talk about the 'anti-mystery'.

First, before talking about anti-mystery, we have to talk about the mystery.
To talk about what is a mystery, a thin booklet like this wouldn't have enough pages.
Because of that, I'd like to advance the talk in an extremely simple way here.

Basically, when we say 'mystery', this points out to the 'authentic mystery'.
To explain it in a rough and yet simple way, the classical mystery denominates something where it's possible for the reader to reach the correct answer through the information exposed in the middle of the story, without waiting for the 'in-play' answers.

This is the main idea of the mystery and certainly it is appropriate to name it 'authentic'.
It means that at the same time it is a reading material, it is also an intelligence contest between the writer and the reader.
In that sense, I think it is possible to understand an authentic mystery as being the one genre that looks the most like a game among all novel genres.

In other words, a high-grade authentic mystery should be a complete arithmetic puzzle game.
And this fact should have been sublimated in high-grade by means of the many masterpieces of the famous writers.
However, a sublimated authentic mystery soon runs into a certain problem.
That is a difficult and famous problem, called 'last part queen problem'.

Explaining it in an extremely simply way, the 'last part queen problem' says it is impossible to prove by oneself that the information that the detective (reader) is able to know is 'everything' there is to it.
A great detective would probably use all the hints and evidences given to him and produce brilliant deductions and logical views.
However, it's necessary one prerequisite so that his deduction is correct.

And that would be to say that the all evidences and hints investigated by the detective must be 'complete'.
In most cases, the detective thoroughly investigates the scene of the crime, finds all the evidences and hints and then lists them.
However.
We can't deny the existence of a 'conclusive evidence X that the detective did not find yet'.
In other words, no matter what kind of brilliant deduction the great detective reached, that would be nothing more than a 'construction from evidences and hits at that point in time'.
In other words, if an undiscovered and conclusive evidence X were taken into consideration, it would not be possible to deny the possibility that the deduction the detective did reach could be turned upside down.

In other words, in addition to working out a deduction from the many evidences, it was born the obligation for the detective to stablish proof that 'there are no evidences undiscovered'.
And, needless to say, to prove this is exactly a 'Devil's Proof' (probatio diabolica).
...... In other words, it means it ended up coming to light that it's not possible for the detective to prove that his deduction is correct.
The authentic mystery, that should be completely logical, in spite of that, this time, fell into the dilemma of not being able to show an answer logically.

No matter how much, during the story, one explains that 'there's one master key', we can't deny the possibility that there are copies of the master key.
Even if one explain it is impossible, we can never deny the possibility that 'a copy was made without that character's knowledge'.
Even if they explain that it has a shape that is impossible to make a copy, it doesn't reach the point of denying th existence of a 'not yet known technology that can copy it even so'.

The first discoverer in the scen of the crime might be lying, the judgement results of the police might be wrong.
They may have been bribed by the criminal or are covering something to lead the detective into a wrong deduction...
If we don't deny completely those things and 'all possibilities aside from the ones assumed', we could not even reach the presentation of the problem.
However, needless to say, it is impossible.

Saying it in an extreme way, even if the detective (reader) were to reach an extremely logical deduction and there was a scene where the criminal recognizes it and gives in.
...... We cannot deny the possibility that a lethal and undiscovered evidence X remains and, moreover, an accomplice made a fake confession to protect the real criminal and took the blame in his place.

Actually, in 'Watanagashi-hen' of 'Higurashi no Naku Koro Ni', too, there is a point where this dilemma is used as a motif.
Actually, before the announcement of 'Meakashi-hen', almost all the readers should have been wrong about the criminal of 'Watanagshi-hen'.
That is because with 'Watanagashi-hen' alone, it was depicted a scene where the criminal recognized Rena's deduction and so, that deduction was 'concluded' there.
In other words, __ is the criminal and 'the deduction at that time was correct'.

In spite of that, in 'Meakashi-hen', many new informations, unknown at the time of 'Watanagashi-hen', were revealed and, as a result of that, it is revealed that a different character was the real criminal.
It was probably a valid solution to the readers who had finished reading until 'Meakashi-hen' but, at the time of 'Watanagashi-hen', it was impossible to deduce that.
However, while it may be true, the deduction construction at the time of 'Watanagashi-hen' was 'not an error'.
Even if you reached the wrong criminal, that deduction was correct 'at that time'.
Because, at that time, it was a 'genuine' solution obtained using all the existing ingredients available.
But, one thing is certain.
The specification of the criminal at the stage of 'Watanagashi-hen' was wrong.

This is the 'last part queen problem'.
And then, the reader should have finished reading Meakashi-hen, obtained a definite answer and managed to get a certain amount of understanding of it.
However, even so.
Even finishing the reading of 'Meakashi-hen', there's no guarantee that that was the right truth.
As long as there is the 'last part queen problem'.
It's just an extremely irrational example but, if, in later years, Ryuukishi07 were to write the Truth Clarification Chapter, 'Higurashi no Naku Koro Ni Truth', and then announced it 'adding not yet known new information as appendix' such as 'The truth of 'Watanagashi-hen' and 'Meakashi-hen' were disguised, in fact, the criminal was the unexpected character ___!', it would be overwritten as the correct truth and it would be possible to distort even the truth of 'Meakashi-hen'.
(Dreadfully, even this unfair thing would become fair in case we considered these 3 chapter, 'Watanagashi-hen', 'Meakashi-hen' and 'Truth Clarification Chapter', as only one piece of work.
No matter what kind of appendix information it is, it is impossible to prove whether it was added later or not.
And then, as long as there is the 'last part queen problem', it will be allowed to add new information later as much as one wants.
After all, it is impossible to deny the existence of undiscovered information.)

I'll write it sounding like an excuse, but, obviously, 'Watanagashi-hen' and 'Meakashi-hen' are the two views of the same scenario.
There won't be any settings added later.
...... Naturally, even if I say it here, it's impossible to prove the authenticity of what I said.

In other words, what I want to say is that, whatever is the answer, even the truth (oracle) according to the writer (god)!, they are not absolute.
The truth can be altered many times over by the hands of a META being of a higher stratum than even the supreme god of the story, the writer, this meta-being being the writer himself in the future.
In other words, it's an extremely rough argument but, as long as we talk about 'last part queen problem', we'll collapse into the dilemma of the mystery being an impossible puzzle.

How ironic it is for the mystery to have reached the point of denying its own existence, as the result of having tried to be pure as a mystery....

I call this 'anti-mystery', including the ironic sense in it.

Regarding the Meta Rules

As long as there is the 'Devil's proof', we and the detective can never deny an evidence X, yet to be discovered.
As long as the 'Devil's proof' is not broken, we won't even be able to obtain the qualifications to challenge the mystery.
People die before your eyes, secret rooms are constructed, doubtful evidences roll around, and in spite of that, we can't start the deductions.

Instead of investigations in the scenes of the crimes, scrutinies of evidences and testimonies from the local where they were first discovered!
We have to check 'that' before anything else.
'That' is, in other words, ...... 'whether it is possible or not to make deductions with all the evidences in this place now'!
Historical great detectives look up at the skies at the scenes of the crimes and, before anything, ask to the almighty god (writer).

" Is this world (piece of work), an authentic mystery (possible to deduce)?!"

Then, God answers like this.

" Yeah, this piece of work is an authentic mystery.
So, it's definitely possible for you to solve it as well, relax and make your deductions."

Then, when the detective thinks 'Aah, good to hear it', relaxes and is able to challenge the mystery, he strokes down his chest and finally begins to investigate the scene of the crime.
Even in real murder cases, certainly a scene like this might happen too.
After the police blocks the circumference of the scene of the crime and keeps the media at a distance, the detectives clap their hands and look up at the skies.

" Aah, God!
Would it be possible to solve this case?!
If you don't tell us that, we won't be able to investigate or make deductions...!!
After all, if it is an irregular mystery or a *bizarre/social mystery*, not to say if it is a fantasy romance in vogue now, it won't make any sense even if we try to make deductions!"

*(Shakaiha Mystery, bizarre is imprecise but I can't find a better words here)

However, since it is as a real life problem.
God doesn't answer to them.
Then, could it be that they will keep on clapping hands until there is a revelation?
If there's no revelation, the investigations will close?

When calling this situation to mind, and jokingly thought 'Aah, what a stupidity, this is an idiocy!!', for the first time, I realized that the notion of 'Anti-mystery' is something possible.
The human beings try to rationally seek arithmetic answers in all the riddles.
At first glance, it looks intellectual but, in fact, that is a big mistake.
'Unless there is the premise that that riddle is something we can obtain the correct answer rationally', the human beings are unable to challenge the riddle.
And such a premise will never be given.
In other words, while the human beings boast that they domineer intellectuality and can deduce mysteries, in practice, without a certificate from God, they don't have brains, thoughts or ideas, they are ignorant, inept, unrefined, unable to use even a fragment of their 'gray brain cells'.
It means they have nothing but an intelligence of the same level as a paramecium.

What Beatrice sneers at in 'Umineko no Naku Koro Ni' is exactly that.
While enthusiastic about seeking arithmetic answers in everything, in spite of that, if it is not guaranteed that that is possible, they can't even challenge it.
Comparing it with boxing, it would be like a boxer saying that he only wants to fight with an opponent that he was guaranteed that he can win.
To the witch Beatrice, the human beings who are enthusiastic about denying the witch and disclose the truth rationally look this much laughable.

When you finished the EP1 of 'Umineko No Naku Koro Ni', were you really able to challenge the mystery?
You hesitated in the challenge just because there was no word about whether it was authentic or not, didn't you?
You hesitated in the challenge just because there was no proof that all the evidences were shown, didn't you?

...... Kuukuukuuku!!
Fooool.
Care to tell me where and when in your life did you have a proof like that?
When you took examinations to enter high school, if you did not received a revelation that you'd pass the exam, upon asking it to God, you wouldn't be able to pass? Kuuhiihyaahahahahahahaha...!
You mean that if your mama had not said 'my little boy will surely pass the exam!', you would not have been able to pass the exaaaam??
Kuuhiihihihihihihihihi!

You managed to understand that how the mysteries the humans talk about are worthless.
And, if you managed to understand my will to laugh, you are welcome to the world of the 'anti-mystery'.
They oftenly say that 'in this world, there are many things science can't explain', right?
That's right.
It is impossible to prove perfectly everything in this world.
It is always possible to suppose a not yet known X that we did not suppose.
And nobody can deny that!
Reasoniing?
Mystery?
Aahyahahahahahahahahahahaha!!
Foooliiiiiish!!
When the little boy buys a new book at the mystery library, he should ask his Mama to read it first.
And then, you should just ask to her 'is it possible for me to solve this book too?' and when Mama nodded to you, you would read.
It'd be good for you to eat only the baby food your Mama chewed for youuu, Uuhyeehyaahyaahyaahyaaaa!!

-- That why I tell Milady, such a thing has no class.

We could say that the 'red truth' Beatrice-sama uses is an antithesis against that.
The things she said with the 'red truth' are just as the words of a god.
Without any kind of evidence or proof, it becomes the truth.
If she said, with the red truth, that 'the door can only be unlocked with the master key', it'd become completely unnecessary to make suppositions besides that.
It'd be unnecessary to make suppositions of pulling it from inside with lock pickings or fishing lines.
if she had continued to add saying in red that 'the number of master keys is 5 and it is only possible to unlock it with them.
And that duplications are impossible', it would become even more perfect.

But, let's be bold and leave the best to the end.
It is impoosible to prove whether the 'red truth', that calls itself as the truth, is really the real truth, even for the Milady.
I guess there are people among you all who are still in doubt whether Milady's 'red truth' can really be trusted.

That's right.
In this world, a truth that you can prove to be the truth doesn't exist.
So, if you ask whether you can believe that truth or not, it will probably end up becoming a question like this.

'Can you believe her?"

Probably, before long, you too will call for a person you love to be your companion.
And then, at the day of the commitment, you should certainly be asked that question by the priest.
Could it be that, even at that time, you will want to say you can't prove that the truth she says is the truth......? ... Puukukukukukuku.

In order to deny the witch, you have to challenge a game between a witch and a human.
However, to deal with that, you have to believe that the witch's 'red truth' is certainly the truth.
Even though it is a game to challenge the witch, and you don't believe her, that you have to believe the witch's utterance is quite a laughable contradiction.

When you heard for the first time about the rule of the 'red truth' and asked if you could trust that, Milady said this.
' I am playing this game with you.
The rules of the game are sacred!! A person who makes light of that is not qualified to take part!!'

Puukuukuuku...!
In the end, you and Milady have a relation tied by a sacred reliance.
Something even a demon would be jealous.
Puukuuku....

There isn't any truth in this world.
Even 'love', reputed to be the sole element of this world, in the nd, is an illusion.
Fantasy.
The humans who try to explain everything as mystery and try to deny the fantasy might not be qualififed to love and to be loved.

Are you 'anti-fantasy'? Or 'anti-mystery'?

Hohou? Are you using it conveniently, according to the situation?
That might be the wisest thing to do, I guess.

With the exaggerated tales of prowess of the friends, use the anti-fantasy.
At the times you want to get drunk with inappropriate dreams, use anti-mystery.
In the nights you can't sleep, use an antimony music box of a gentle timbre.

Then, have a good sleep, everyone....

!!! something i realised in Umineko EP 05

2009-12-22T01:58:00.001+08:00

Since umineko mentioned this in the game,

Knox's "Ten Commandments" (or "Decalogue") are as follows:

The criminal must be mentioned in the early part of the story, but must not be anyone whose thoughts the reader has been allowed to know.
All supernatural or preternatural agencies are ruled out as a matter of course.
Not more than one secret room or passage is allowable.
No hitherto undiscovered poisons may be used, nor any appliance which will need a long scientific explanation at the end.
No Chinaman must figure in the story.
No accident must ever help the detective, nor must he ever have an unaccountable intuition which proves to be right.
The detective himself must not commit the crime.
The detective is bound to declare any clues which he may discover.
The stupid friend of the detective, the Watson, must not conceal from the reader any thoughts which pass through his mind: his intelligence must be slightly, but very slightly, below that of the average reader.
Twin brothers, and doubles generally, must not appear unless we have been duly prepared for them.

if according to rule number 7

That means my theory of Battler being the culprit for all the crimes is fail. But now, wad kind of reason umineko is gonna produce to justify that the culprits for the respective games, under wad extreme situation and condition, is thus able to commit such horrendous crime such as to kill the entire family along with the servants. I hope its nt something like hinamizawa syndrome, he cant use the same idea twice man. That would be failblog material.

gotta think of a new theory at the end of EP 05.

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2009-12-21T19:06:00.000+08:00

Decide wad skool/course to enter/study before 271209
Decide wad phone to buy

I need gps or some form of location finder. I need maps. I need a to do list app. i need a calender. i need a stopwatch. i need an alarm clock. i need a camera. I wish it can play songs and allow me to do other stuff like reading at the same time. I hope my eyes wun strain themselves when i read novels with it. I hope i dun need to convert the videos, can straight away put in and play. It must be able to access facebook. It should have some sort of decent internet browser. It would be nice if it had a qwerty keyboard.

Ahh thats all im lookin for in a phone. Wad phone can do all that.

Plan the japan trip for comiket in 2010 july by end of year.

if im lucky, assuming its 1 EP every 1 comiket. I would be able to obtain the last EP of umineko at july. Ahh i already know wad to buy liao.

Chiong driving lesson. FTT on 25 at 1130 btw.
Resume jap lesson asap when yj finish his course

Umineko no naku koro ni EP 04 : Alliance of the golden witch

2009-12-20T02:04:00.000+08:00

Battler sin is that being not there for ange/maria? that caused their subsequent problems in their life, which in turn lead to the Rokkenjima murder case. But ange is only 2 years old when battler abandoned the Ushiromiya name. Ange's terrible life which lead to her escapism thru magic, and eventual acquaintance with maria, and subsequent fall out with maria via the denial of magic.... And den..... Well no need to go any further, this is prolly nt the sin Beatrice was lookin for.

And suddenly they jus throw away "Battler committed a sin and is unaware of it" and move on to other shitz, like Beatrice being depicted as a victim of certain unexplained circumstances as of yet, and of her motive, her true identity, etc etc.

Battler is not born frm asuma, but prolly the son of rudolf. Anyway does that actually have an underlying meaning behind it which is of any significance to the game? Yes if asuma is nt battler's biological mother might lead some argument that Battler is actually Kyrie's son cos Ange has gt red hair too but thats bullshit tho she said she was pregnant with a child ard the same time as asuma but she had a miscarriage if my memory serves. Anyway.........

Wad does asuma have to do with rokkenjima murder case or beatrice herself? So beatrice is doing an ass pull, finding shit reasons to escape the game like disqualifying Battler as her opponent? I hope thats nt the case, and that the mentioning of Asuma have gt an underlying meaning to it.

Why bother to win an intellectual argument with battler when a witch can jus kill him. Somehow the idea of acknowledgment is somewhat main plot of umineko. The truth is as wad you acknowledge.

What about Bernkestel and lambdadelta? What makes them "voyagers"? What makes them so powerful? What the difference between them and the "fake witch" beatrice?

And why the mind screw by stating the year of death of Ange and not Kasumi?!!?!?! Does this mean that the scene where Ange kills Kasumi and the bodyguards didn happen? She was jus dreaming? And that thru her death she was able to travel thru kakera with bernkestel to help battler?

Neways, im really happy for you Battler, and imma let u finish, but damn! its sad that Ange died. I wonder if we will get to see more of her in the future.

Tokin about battler, the intense argument, lol, during the last part of EP04. So many murder case and shitz, cant rmb the details, but still, could see beatrice half-ass'ed effort. Accepting bullshit arguments such as small bomb disguised as food, mistakenly consumed by those 6 ppl den it go boom in their stomach and die. lol wtf.

If wad lambdadelta said was true, that this is another epic troll act in play, den beatrice surely gotta be awarded with best actress of the year. Maybe even best scriptwriter/screenplay and director too.

Some of mysteries that jus bugs me. Like if kinzo was dead frm the start... Den wad makes of the shit we saw of him? The ceremony he prepared to revive beatrice? If he was dead frm the start.... damn that would be a massive mind screw... dun wanna think develop further...

Ah time to rest my head. Dunno hw long den will get to read EP05. In the mean time can try to solve this shit haha.

Im being lame.

2009-12-15T13:50:00.000+08:00

I now understand.

There is no need for more words.

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2009-12-11T02:00:00.000+08:00

not gonna be complaining. Jus to note down some annoying thoughts in my mind. Take them out and store them here.

Few years ago, when 1 of my fren tell me that help ppl must help bo liao stuff, but when is really serious case, u absolutely must not help. In that way, den ppl will treasure your help.

I tot he was jus saying some shitz cos it obviously didn make sense. But for some reason it nvr left my head after all these years.
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When sharing my shitz experiences and teaching nonsense to the new specs, one of the things is to blindly obey the advice of ur seniors/family/people who are more skilled den yourself. Sometimes they take the effort to explain the reason. Sometimes they dun cos they are lazy. Sometimes its impossible to understand until u experience, but that experience might be unpleasant. Neways they shorten the learning curve by telling us the end product, after learning it the hard way themselves.

If they dunno shit, dey wun/shouldn advice/comment on the matter liao. My father wun come telling me how to mod a psp.

Now goin back to the unorthodox guidelines for helping others....
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Some ppl are very nice in general. When they go get a drink, they get 1 for you too without prompt. When they see your shit lying in a place where its nt supposed to be, they return it to you. Simple small small acts of kindness.

But when ARMAGEDDON is here. Hardly will they be of any help. However u forgive the person cos u understand its an incredible problem, plus usually they so nice to you liao, jiu swa la.

Some ppl cant be bothered about you. They do their own shitz. Closes the door after entering the room despite knowing you are jus behind him and even heading for the same place. Wun say hi in the morning. Gives off the "mind your own fucking business and leave me alone" aura.

However when shitz happen, often u find them clearing up the shitz. And u feel no guilt when u see them suffer. They deserve it. Better for them to suffer den my frens wad right?

Isnt it so true, its sad?

I rmb several occasions, i succumb to the easy option. Heck care those that are out of hand, den work with whoever thats remaining.

Its like a judge convicting one of the suspect randomly despite a lack of evidence cos they give up on finding the culprit, "ahhh he will do. lets jus close the case and go fly kite~"

Help when its unnecessary, reject to help when its seriously required.
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One more shitz thats in my mind is this phrase from the anime im currently watching "Without love it cannot be seen."

In the anime, there is this 2 ppl who have different view on this one case. This bitch was the only survivor in a certain freak incident which resulted in the the death of every1 in their annual family conference. Ms A thinks that the bitch killed every1 so she will get 100% of the inheritance. Its extremely profitable for the bitch and seems like good enuff of a motive for her actions. But Mr B, knowing the bitch, believes that it is absolutely impossible for her to kill her family for the inheritance, at the very least her immediate family, for she loved them so much.

Sometimes when some shitz happen, we think, wad the fuck,has he got no conscience? But perhaps there is some reason behind it?
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Mr A ~~stole~~/borrowed Mr B's helmet for certain purposes. After using it, Mr A lost it.
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Mr C gt no footwear cept boots. He finds some sandals in the open. Yay. Can change into casual wear + sandals and go have fun liao. After having fun, he returns. But he didn return the sandals, yet.
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Can we say that case 1 and case 2 is the same? But for some reason i find Mr A a absolutely horrible person but im totally understand Mr C's plight and find his actions totally acceptable.

It can only be explained with this, "without love, it cannot be seen".

Ok now my mind is empty. Finally can start reading my umineko. Wad the, 2am liao. Haiz tml den read la.

Umineko EP 3 ( visual novel )

2009-12-05T23:22:00.000+08:00

There is more than 5 master keys.

This is wad i think. 1 for each servant. Maybe the words/logic can be twisted to allow more den 5 master key exist cos there are more den 5 servants in total for the ushiromiya family anyway. So some dude maybe can take the master keys of the servants who is on off during the annual family meeting.

Neways jus finished EP 3, been thinkin about the stupid golden land. Who benefits when the door to the golden land opens? The trolling by beatrice and virgilia with battler can be done after he sign the shitz wad, why do that when it only brings up suspicion? If their motive is to 'trick' him into acknowledge the existence of witches, den that action dun justify their motive. Its like as if they are buying some time until Ange arrives.

Neways who/what is virgilia anyway. Is she a piece summon just for the game? Is the same concept as in Fate/Stay night where the 'heroes' summoned for the Holy Grail War can come frm different timelines, and that only the spirit of the individual is replicated. It is nt an actual revival of the subject. For i see her only interacting at the game-level, meta-level, but nt at the witch tea party level.

Virgilia is so called beato's teacher. So by rights should be she acknowledged her. But apparently is Lambdadelta who acknowledged her. And wad about the acknowledgment of eva-beatrice? Wad benefit does the witches have to acknowledge new witch/apprentice?

Tokin about lambda, she said she only recommended/acknowledged her cos beatrice lend her the gameboard which she used to 'play' with bernkastel.

So can i draw the conclusion that, virgilia was indeed the teacher of beatrice, however she was an 'apprentice'/semi-witch, which is of a different level with 'acknowledged' witches. Den in exchange for providing aid to lambda, she recommended/acknowledged beatrice, to reach a higher level. As it is revealed, lambda and bern exist at a level beyond most witches, voyagers, which allow them to move between different worlds and still keep their powers.

Beato also have gt alot of persona. When toking in the witches tea party meta-world level, she acts more experienced and wise, compared to the debate meta-world where virgilia exist.

Ahh my head overloaded liao. Next week continue with EP 4. cant wait sia.

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2009-12-04T12:15:00.001+08:00

8 extras for the new year!

Must be our csm kena at his meeting earlier the day. Come back give every1 extra. wtf. 2 ppl to clean plt worth of shit abit xiong ah.

He nvr fails to do this. Punish the people who work for him, reward those who dun.

We, for wadeva reason was in camp for this shitz, nevertheless work. Den due to our incompetence, was unable to achieve his 'high' standards. So we kena extra for our fucked up work. Those that dissappear? That didn do anything? Nothing.

Well but of course this is jus the rambling of mine la.

It would be even more nonsensical to be punished for something you didn do. ( but den again i can argue that those are their responsibility as well, wadeva. )

It would be unfair for people who are nt ard to get punished for the 'fucked up' work produced by us.

It like when team A out of the first 5 penalty takers gt a few miss, den team B all went in. Den the coach scold those that didn get a chance to take the penalty.

i think this is actually nt a very good example, wadeva.

So i decided that, wadeva, sign 8 lor, haha.

Buffet time! Hope i rmb to bring a camera.

Thoughts on Umineko no Naku Koro Ni Episode 2 ( VISUAL NOVEL ) SPOILERS

2009-11-25T16:08:00.016+08:00

Yes indeed the novel is 10000% better than the anime.

The motives of Battler
the reasons for this "debate" with the witch
the "give-aways" that encourage the possibility of denying the witch
the admittance and addressing to the contraction of battler's argument

Especially the last 2 points i feel that the anime fail to bring up to the viewers. Often at times i feel like, wtf owned, hw to solve this crime. Or like abit weird, Battler jus childishly deny witches den the game wun end, and the witch happily continuing the game.

Well its nt like its solved in the VN, but at least its addressed. Its like why are we doing this?? Why must do extra sai gang? Den some1 give a reasonable explanation; although sai gang that dun belong to us nvr makes sense, after that every1 will sux thumb and continue. Well in the event the bullshit explanation dun make sense, every1 will revolt la. Well in the novel context would be no1 will continue reading it. The novel did a good job to address the issue thats why every1 was happy to absorb the shit argument.

Now halfway thru episode 2, i gt a feeling that battler might be the culprit for many, if nt all of the crimes.

*spoilers*

Firstly magic in this world, can be seen as an over-imaginative thought, or magic itself. It is acknowledged by the individual, regardless of others. Its effect only works on believers. Maybe abit like hypnosis.

Limited to my knowledge from DISCOVERY channel, might be extremely wrong.

The hypnotist brings the subject to uber relaxation, den feed simple information that the subject can accept. They can do things like, pass the hypnotist's wallet on the table to him. However when told to give the hypnotist his own wallet, the subject can refuse. The command have to be something that the subject agree in his sub-conscious level. So if beforehand the hypnotist tok cock and ask of the subject to agree to some nonsense stuff like, and speak in a very evil way, which im nt skilled enuff to do so. It will make them agree and accept those actions in the subconscious level, which will allow them to do as the hypnotist say later in the hypnosis.

Cos one of the things that they often bring up, is the total acknowledgment to the existence of magic.

In episode 1 where battler refuse to acknowledge magic's existence, the magic which brought the every1 to the "golden land" dissolved.

When Ange deny the existence of sakutaro, maria was angry with her.

And also when the 7 stakes disappear upon the denial of their existence by Ange.

So say if Battler agree that the it was impossible for the 'closed room' to exist. Den it will be acknowledged that it was done by magic. But if he denies it, and come up with a logical solution, den it becomes that way.

But one can also argue that the truth has always been 'that', but its jus the witch twisting the facts.

Like one of the common arguement. The debate can be over with a extravagant display of magic. But like an analogy used in the novel, it would be like winning a chess game via physically beating ur opponent to concede. However another shit to support magic is the existence of this 'game'. It takes place in some meta-world, where that can observe wads happening on Rokkenjima over and over again. For them to be in such a place is beyond reality liao.

The Ushiromiya family seems to have magical potential in them to some extent, despite wadeva any1 said. Maria does, battler does ( only his resistance to magic is proven, but i wun be surprised if that accounts for ability as well ), Ange also have magical potential, Eva also.

With due time perhaps we will see even more ppl with magic potential.

Neways so tokin about Battler, i see it that, for each argument he put forward, and acknowledge. It will become the truth. That is his magic. And how does it happen? He himself will commit the crime. He proposed how the crime could be done, obviously he could hav carried it out himself, for he deemed that it was possible.

Why i have this argument? Cos when Ange was mega angry as her classmates were bullying her, she froze the world and entered meta-world and ordered the 7 stakes to kill em all. They couldn comply and gave some shitz reason ( i blame the anime ), however at least mammoth said something interesting. She said that if Ange herself is willing to stain her hands she will no doubt follow her to the end.

Ahh i feel like thats the key to unlock the mystery.

So this magic now act like some motivator? Self-empowerment? Every1 always tok in their head, perhaps "magic users" simply have ALOT ALOT more people tokin in their head. They use "magic" to bring dolls to life, and act like "talking" to them.

Spectators dun understand, cos they dun accept magic. However to the individual thats concerned, the dolls are alive.

Im sure if Battler sincerely wish for it, a mysterious 20th or 29th person can exist on the island. MOST PROLLY THE AUNT OF ANGE WHO WANTS TO KILL HER. I WUN BE SURPRISED IF SHE MAKES AN APPEARANCE.

But no his argument is that it cant be the witch, it cant be one of the 18. Well himself excluded.

Repeating wad i said earlier, upon acknowledgment of the methods of the crime he himself proposed, it becomes the truth; with the Battler that exist in the gameboard carrying it out.

Ahhh i can see the ending.

Den at the FINAL GAME, he makes use of his newly realised power, to manipulate the gameboard where every1 lives happily ever after.

*end of spoilers*

Ok time to go swimming.

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2009-11-17T22:07:00.002+08:00

damn shag. The past few swimming i keep focusin on polishing my breaststroke technique. Swimming at a very very slow speed. But to make up for it. Swim alot alot more den usual. Last time before i realise how lousy my strokes were, 1 X length of pool enuff to get me panting. Den i will take a 15mins break den continue. 4 X length of pool and call it a day lol.

But now i can do at least 30 X length of pool. Perhaps that is actually still a very lousy amt of distance lol.

Damn tired. But fun. Next time aiming for 40 X length of pool in a shot.

Signed up for driving liao wheeeeee. Faster finish den can continue with jap lessons!

Ok time to sleep. Maybe tml go swimming again.

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2009-11-14T14:57:00.002+08:00

so did i actually save time or did i waste time?

On average, each clip is 8mins. Time to download 6 mins each. Convert ard 2 mins. To find rename and other little shitz, 30secs. Downloads can be simultaneous. Time to transfer 10 clips is 1 min.

0.5mins --> 1 file downloading
1.0mins --> 2 file..
2.0mins --> 4
4.0mins --> 8
6 --> 12 file
10 --> 20 files plus 2 files converted
20 --> 40 files plus 7 files converted
1 hour --> 120 files plus 27 files converted

But i've been working for 2 hours at last night and 1 hour today.

I only gt.... 40 files converted.

Inefficient...

Ok comparing with that.

If i had spend the 3 hours watching...

i would be able to watch.. 60X3/8= 22.5 clips.

Ok now i feel better.

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2009-11-11T14:51:00.002+08:00

maybe thats why people retake a levels so many times.

THEY ARE ADDICTED TO EXAMS lol.

Damn fun la today GP paper. Choose 1 topic and go on and on and on about my theories and nonsense.

I chose the topic, "As long as people in the public eye do their job well, it doesnt matter wad they do in private."

Basically i tok about what is that they defined as "wrong". Den tok about their quality of work is nt dependent on their personal lifestyle. But society doesnt want the wrong ideas like "beg borrow steal, obtain it, regardless" to circulate. Tok about human being imperfect. Discuss about society de mentality all the bullshit.

Write damn lot la, at first still scared cannot meet the 500 word limit lol.

Den paper 2 dunno la. Everytime i also think easy LOL, but everytime come back GP result "S" haha.

I think my language poor, cannot convey my msg and ideas across. haha.

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*some time have passed*

After taking a shower, i realise my mistakes for GP. I think i didn ask to the point for most parts of it lol.

And at times, mention alot of things but nvr go and substantiate it with facts or strong argumentative points.

Hmmm.

Even after reading the prologue of fortune arterial so many times ( first time was raw jap DEMO version, 2nd time when i gt the game itself read with AGTH + atlas, 3rd time was the comic, 4th time is now de english 1 ), i cannot accept the fact that kouhei decided to keep his memories, which would otherwise be erased for some certain reason, via some certain way.

I think i didn convery my msg properly again with my lousy sentencing.

I understand what made him change his mind, its very very reasonable and realistic. He came to 智館学院 which gt a hostel, instead of moving with his parents like he did 20 times before becos he wan to make frens, and stop being a 'migratory bird'. But when faced with some unpleasant thing, he freaked out and chose to run away from it. Take the easy way out and try to forget it. If he loses his memory of skool so far, in essence he jus simply transfer skool again. Easy for him. Lose all the frens and experience he made only wad. But by doing so, he is slapping himself in the face for goin against the decision he made when he came to this skool. Only after repeated reminders den helped him make the right choice that he already know but nt strong enuff to make.

But i feel that just by changing his mind, he 'lost'. To whom? Nobody. Jus that feeling. Like say..... RRRR cant think of an example but i ALWAYS get this kinda feeling de leh. Precisely so, that i gt an issue over his change of decision.

Hmmmmmmm.......

Simply put, i think its becos im a bad loser lol.

But this feeling i get is the reason why i dun wan to study for my a levels 'AT THIS STAGE', nt say at the start la.

At the start nvr study is totally my fault la. Laziness, lack of discipline, no attention span are nt excuses. Im sayin these are my faults and by pointing them out im nt saying i cant be blame becos of these reasons.

Its like a murderer honestly saying, 'I killed him cos i he kicked my dog.". And by saying this he doesnt mean he wants to escape his crime with a reason. He knows hes wrong and would accept any form of punishment as deem appropriate. And so happen some1 ask him, why do it? So he jus said the truth.

Anyway tokin about this LATE STAGE of a levels, becos its nt like a miracle will happen and with ONE DAY of mugging before exam, i can top the country, thats why i say im nt studying. And cos i said that, if i study now, i would be like admitting defeat. DEFEAT OF I DUNNO WAD SORT. ( Eh, isnt this an example that im looking for earlier? )

Maybe this bad habit of mine should be changed.

But that brings me to think of instances where i rmb i said something like "but at least show some effort, i dun see that from you" to some other people for some other different scenarios.

Its like 1 sec down the shot clock, the team is down by 2 points. A three point wun jus tie the game, it will be won. But with only 1 sec u dun even know if u gt enuff time the take the shot. Wads worst, you haven even cross the halfway line. u have to make the choice of to shoot or jus giv up. I would jus give up. Some people will think y nt jus try? No harm. And if it does actually go in, one has jus attained immortality.

I think if it does go in, the credit goes to luck and none to effort.

The above statement obviously makes no sense.

I think i jus spout out dunno how many hundreds words worth of rubbish. Time for a swim.

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2009-11-10T21:25:00.002+08:00

Its like i traveled back in time. That moment felt exactly like when i was taking my maths paper 2 years ago. The simple questions i can do, den come the questions which i lack the basic knowledge such as formula to even start. Den come questions that can plot graph, den i would take my own sweet time to free hand draw out the PERFECT curve. Den take my time write my name and particulars on every sheet of paper. Take forever to try figure questions, try all sorts of funny methods to solve the problem. Daydream a little. Observe the bored teachers.

My first run thru of the paper took 1 hour. Den after the above fooling ard. Still gt 1 hour left. Tat was the hardest part of the test lol.

Oh and the part when the teacher repeated after me, saying "dont have GC?!?!". Stressed lol.

Overheard some of those ppl retaking a levels, they also tok about retaking alot of times liao.

Why like quite common ah lol. Why ppl will retake and retake over and over again. Is getting into a uni so crucial?? Why do they even need to retake over n over again? Is it like me no discipline to study? Or really find the a levels too difficult haha.

Is the variance of a degree and diploma so great in both prospect and purview of one's future?

Practising for tml's GP essay lol.

Speaking of which, i totally how is the paper 2 like liao. Is it called comprehension? Or is that the secondary skool equivalence?

Sian ytd browsing thru the poly courses i also didn hav the attention span to spare for it.

Studying fail, browsing fail.

APPLY FOR DRIVING ASAP.

RESUME JAP LESSON ASAP.

LOOK INTO POLY COURSES ASAP.

LOOK INTO possible UNI COURSES ASAP.

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2009-11-09T18:41:00.002+08:00

Still couldn find a gc lol. Fuck care it, nt like its gonna affect much. A lvl 1 carrying a divine rapier fight a lvl 25 with no item also will lose.

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Do i really dunno wad to do? Or am i jus not doing anything?

First clubbing sightseeing

2009-11-01T13:53:00.002+08:00

I always said that clubbing is not my kind of thing hence i dun go club.

But recently after a chat with some old cabby ( conversation with taxi drivers always makes me think alot sia lol ), i decided that should be exposed to everything, at least try out the new stuff.

The old man was saying about he dun understand technology and stuff. The usual rambling la.

But i was thinkin, its not like technology jus appeared out nowhere. Yes it's growth is fast, jus switch off for 1 year and u will be shocked at the advancement of technology if u haven been following.

So back to the old man. He didn like go into jail or wad. Or trapped at some island den only gt rescued only days ago. So why many in that generation couldn catch up with the trend of the world?

Firstly perhaps introduction of high-technology to be incorporated in our lives seems foreign to them. They hav always made tofu with their stone grinder, den let the sediments gather, drain out the water wad shitz. They cannot accept that machinery can do things faster, with lesser effort.

Little things here and there, create a side-effect of rejecting all of technology. Im sure a mobile phone is nt so abstract to them for the PHONE has already existed in their time. The only difference is that now they can carry it in their pocket.

As they get more out of touch with technology, the harder is it for them to join into it again. Soon the mental barrier formed become insurmountable.

So ytd dominic demands that i go clubbing with him. Initially i said no, but thinkin about the old man case, i decide to say yes, for the sake of exposure to new experience.

Went to Zirca at ard 12am. $28 entrance with 2 drinks.

Loud music, heavy bass, simple rhythms which are easy to get into the flow.
Crowded, dark and smokey.

And lol on our way to the bar, kena felt up by some gay dude. Seriously. The gay he gently get closer to ur back, den u can feel him feeling up ur ass. I jus siamed off sia, let my fren's dood enjoy it.

We took like 5 mins to reach the bar la. Den afterwards he was there complaining xD.

Like everywhere else, there is a pecking order. The newbies will get the drinks frm the bar. lvl 2 clubbers will help out the noobs a lil, at times look abit lost as well. Den the lau jiaos will be there mingling with the other regulars, already starting to have some fun while the dumb fucks get drinks for them.

Had 2 drinks. dunno wads the first 1, the other 1 was beer. The lau jiaos jus gulped everything down and went off liao lol. I was slowly sipping it. Not comfortable enuff to down it all in a shot.

2 cups is pointless anyway. So far, my experiences with alcohol. I've gotten to the state where its extremely uncomfortable, completely on the opposite end of the supposed "lose yourself and enjoy mindlessly" kinda state.

The other time i drank at some dude's house, that was prolly the closest time i gotten to the supposed 'ideal' state. My head was feeling light, cant really think straight. But still, i can still walk ard, and go home on bus.

That reminds me of some dumb drunk girls i saw ytd =D. Almost remind me of oink that time drunk haha.

Neways after having the 2 cup of drinks which had no effect, we proceed to this place where one would call it the 'dance floor'?

I wasnt able to switch off and get into the groove. Such mindless movement that can barely be called 'dancing'. this is all but jus an activity to feel up fit individuals of the opposite sex.

And if your lucky/skilled enuff, perhaps the fun only jus started for the night.

In jus a short period of time, i've gotten so many free boobies and asses. If one were to be like the gay dude, i think this would be a great experience for japanese chikans.

Soon after, i smoked out and headed home.

Everybody gt their own preferences and dislikes. Like i will nvr understand stuff like maple and walking aimlessly. While others might not get it why ppl can bear to spend $2 for a 5 mins arcade game.

My own definition of the purpose of clubbing is simple. Its for ppl who dun wan to think, jus switch off, and let their instinct take over. Unable to put oneself at a state of nothingness with one's own will, use alcohol, trance music, lighting effect to free oneself from everything.

That being said, maybe thats why women go clubbing. Rmb awhile ago every1's posting on facebook about men and women's mind, women jus cant stop thinkin. Thats why they go club to switch off =D.

Else i dun understand why would women go clubbing. Perhaps wad i perceive of that 'men gt everything to gain and women have everything to lose' is

COMPLETELY wrong.

Perhaps its mutual, women come to club with the same objective as men. Or jus to switch off lol.

Comparing club with other possible alternatives like, watching soccer, mahjong session, kbox session, series quality dota game, disturbing my sister, running, swimming, sleeping, meditating, etc.

I think the only activity i would rather choose clubbing over it would be running.

Clubbing dun hav any intellectual exchanges/communication. Its a mindless activity. Wad quality friendship can be made i also dunno.

Which is why i enjoy goin pub. Get some drinks, listen to slow relaxing music, and tok cock with ur frens.

This reminds me of a discussion in the past with dunno who about loosely defined friendships compared to some freaks who think they are conducting a interview to see if they should accept individuals as frens.

Lol i think in the end, i jus tryin to justify my lifestyle haha

nice sad music video ( vocaloid )

2009-10-27T22:53:00.003+08:00

There is this boy
kena in the concentration camp
suffer
but everyday
he see this girl outside the fence
he likes her
they communicate with letters folded in paper planes
thrown across the fence
She was his pillar of support
He treasure every paper plane from her
But one day she says leaving for good
And its absolute
Hes got nothing left in his world
Den the soldiers come at the best timing
ridicule his letters
He was infuriated and threw some punches
And the rest is self-explanatory
His regret is unable to be with her
not knowing at least her name before he died
And he died.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VoK5d58G20c

There was a girl
She is sick
She gotta stay in the hospital
But everyday when daddy goes to work
She sneaks out
There is this fence outside
With a boy on the other side
He sends her these paper planes letters
Hes kinda fun
Her eyes are failing
She couldn see his bruises and scars
It doesnt matter
The boy wasnt looking for sympathy
Time passed
Eyesight worsen
Could hardly walk
But wad about the boy
Decides to say farewell
Its better for them both
She says that shes leaving and not coming back
He cannot accept it and cry for her to stay
but she wants to but she know she is unable to
One day her condition is critical
Daddy thinks her frequent escape out of hospital only did more harm to her body
and its all that boy's fault
So happen daddy is in the military
He finds the boy and give him 1 X good one
He sees the letters as prove of his crimes
He tears them up
The boy went into a rage
It was den that it struck to him wad terrible thing he did
He couldn amend his mistakes
All he can do is to send him away
In the girl's final moments
She wishes to be with the boy
But that is the privilege of the living
If she can make 1 wish
It would be for him to live

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NSOTLsYpugw

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2009-10-26T22:54:00.002+08:00

Jus changed calculator's battery. Do i need french curve? Where is my pencilbox? Wad should i wear? How to go NJ? Nvm, go cook some egg first. How about watching some tv? Time for a nap.

Afterall, i literally didn study for a levels at all.

Den why retake it? Even after the extent to request for late late entry. Why didn i study hard.

Any reasons would jus be an excuse. I was jus lazy, i cant make myself study.

The purpose to retake a levels was to improve my chances of getting a certain scholarship. Due to age restriction and stuff. This year was the last year to retake a levels. So i jus went ahead and try to apply to retake alevels.

I realise my business ideas appear whenever i have to study. Its like, i need to study well to get a decent job in the future. But i dun wan to study. So how else? So i come up with random solutions to solve the problem.

And when exams are over, or when i decide that i can stop studying for wadsoever reason i justify myself with. The ideas jus stop there. Its like daydreaming.

I look at myself now. I think im in a mess.

5 years from now. I think i'll be exactly the same. Living with my parents, watching anime reading manga, prolly get a part-time job that pays $6 an hour, occasionally play some basketball, play lan, go swimming. No change.

Perhaps 5 years later, i might even take over my fathers job. Working 12 hours a day every week. Perhaps sunday can close shop at 2pm. Prolly watch some TV and cook some dinner and go to sleep.

Terrible.

Im afraid to make decision for myself. It seems that i lack determination, weak willpower. Unable to perserve.

I lost 4kg. I had a megamcspicy and im 80kg now. gained 3kg. Told myself to chiong for alevels. But gave up after 1 month. Business ideas also all talk no action.

I think i should jus learn a skill and get a job with that skill. Life would be more simple like that.

I think balithai is bad.

2009-10-17T22:26:00.002+08:00

The tom yam soup is more parts sweet, than its famed spicy/hotness and sourness. If authentic tom yam is actually liddat, den i think i prefer the instant noodle msg tom yam soup better.

The nasi goreng taste as good as white rice.

I think my hse downstairs de hawker center sells better hor fun den here, but den again, that stall de hor fun is actually alot better than average, so maybe its nt a fair comparison.

The hotplate tofu is decent; nothing amazing.

But the place looks quite pretty.

So overall the dining experience gets a score of 2/10.

Perhaps my taste buds are different from every1 else. Or perhaps balithai really knows how to do business. Attracting customers nevertheless.

I think that eating good food is bad. Cos after u taste something so good, ur standard for food will rise, lowering ur satisfaction from low quality food.

The first time i was interested in jap food was after i brought my first manga 'love hina'. I told my mama to bring me to ichiban sushi. Den tried sakae sushi, den wad suki sushi etc etc.

During then, those were good enuff.

Den move on to sakura, kushinbo, shokudo, those.

At first, i tot they were imba. For at least 1 year i was happy to throw $50 to eat kushinbo, spend $70 at shokudo. Well at least i gt sick of sakura at my 2nd visit; enlightened early.

Den now reach lvl 3, when i start to discover places that nt so famous, but sell better food. For some reason, usually buffets.

Places like yoshoku-imba sashimi place, himawari-all rounder like kaka and federer. Midori only visit once so cannot rate yet, but i rmb it was nt bad.

Oh ya, hanabi is bad. Plz avoid.

Yoshoku, beside island creamery at serene center. The food is jus average. But they serve top grade sashimi. Its nonsensely good. Nuff said. Sashimi lovers must go try it.

Himawari, at mount faber safra club. Can anyhow order any food, most of em is above average. A few recommendations for starters would be the karaage chicken.

Salmon sashimi?

Ah try the tempura ebi. I dun eat seafood. Sometimes i try eating crabs/prawn, but i dun find it nice. I rather have chicken. But for some reason, the tempura ebi here is jus awesome.

Oh and remember to order the shabu-shabu. Its a steamboat with fish stock soup. The ingredients they all put inside liao. Its served with a plate of raw meat as well. The soup damn nice.

Its nice. Tentatively my fave place.

Neways a few weeks ago i went shokudo again. It was pretty normal. I no longer enjoy it like i used to. In fact i dun find it worth me $$ anymore. I think its gonna be a long time till i return again.

Maybe i should stick to combat ration. Den maybe my mom's imba-ly healthy vege fried using water would taste heavenly.

I dun wanna see wads beyond the corner.....

2009-10-11T18:02:00.002+08:00

BCC is xiong. A levels are coming. Decide to stop Jap lesson for awhile, plans to learn driving. 2nd year SOC and IPPT haven clear. Ideas all still floating ard. No concrete plans for future.

Time to climb some mountain to do some reflection.

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2009-10-04T14:09:00.002+08:00

I wanna go camping at some snowy place for 5 days! Wanna try build an igloo, make a fire, see how comfy is it, or it is jus total nonsense.

Wanna try fishing at the frozen lake. Fish for dinner yay.

Maybe climb a small hill and relac at the hilltop. Maybe eat a few chilli padi.

Shall add this to my things-to-do-before-i-die list.

ORD soon liao. How now?

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2009-09-21T20:00:00.000+08:00

sian, new windows update screw with the bitcomet again.

perspective, relativity

2009-09-14T19:40:00.002+08:00

Anyhow spend $$$. Worthy purchases. Save time. Waste time. Which is the truth and which are the illusions.

To spend $$$, to buy a new computer, so that the time wasted on loading, processing, lagging, will be reduced or ELIMINATED, which in turn means save time. Would that define a worthy expenditure as it results in saving time? Becos definitely im gonna use computers, so might as well get a good computer so that my time spent on computer will be more efficient.

Or is it a waste of $$$, for the time wasted will be not be converted to something more 'productive', it will instead lengthen wadeva nonsense that im doing like perhaps dota or wad. And cos my computer dun lag anymore, perhaps i no longer throw my laptop away in frustration and do something else instead. That something else will now be forgone for dota. That something could be cooking, buying grocery, studying, sleeping, exercising, etc. And also, with a better computer, i now can play more games, and perhaps more time will be 'wasted' on the computer.

So what is a waste of $$$, wad is a waste of time.

To take taxi cos its shiok. Is it a waste of $$$? Sometimes im so tired. Booking out is like so xiong. Take my imba bag and walk for dunno hw far, to wait at the busstop in singapore's nonsense hot weather. To take a fully packed bus and stand the whole time with my imba huge and heavy bag. And den to choose between mrt = more standing and more squeezing, or bus = sit but waste time. Den after that, in both options, i still have to walk a short distance den reach my hse. At that point of time, the journey in the lift to lvl 12 seems like a 24km road march. So tired, so long, so frustrated. Den reach home must unlock the main gate, and plus another new lock cos of that time de incident.

2 hours journey. Whole body full of sweat. Xiong.

So, very often, i succumb to the taxi, the easy way out. Is this a waste of money?

Enuff of such nonsense.

Today i was tokin with _____. I asked if __ knew about the cost of renting a space of certain sorts. Hmm $20000? Perhaps im too naive, that figure nvr came across my mind. Last week i also was asking my tuition teacher about the rental cost of his place, some tiny space, with 3 tiny tiny 小さい room. He says thats its very expensive. But he didn reveal the amount.

Hmmm how sia.

Neways so back to ____. So i reveal a tiny li bit about my nonsense ideas, and den i guess __ tot that __ found a target.

I dun really like it. The way they approach ppl ah, standard de leh. Issue is nt about their technique la, but tsk, i dun like them ah. Dun try to sell those ideas to me.

But some la, some of them, really ah, damn fake. Standard every month or 2, will/might call you and start of the convo with a standard intro, ask you the same old things each time. How u've been, wad u doing, den try to psycho u. The first part is damn fake la, often the subject is very shallow like today is a fine weather.

But often i fail to say no, and in the end waste few hours of my time at some nonsense place. Den after that, will need to deal with the after effects for few months.

But perhaps this time its nt one of those. Perhaps its real. Tsk blame the others that make me so scared.

Which makes me reflect upon myself. Isnt that wad im doing recently? Tho its nt entirely the same, but its somehow similar. Hmm.... Thats why when i approach my targets i very scared i portray the same image/feel as those ppl. Luckily, according to hoho and yangxi, im nt like them haha.

ok enuff shitz, time for..... hmm... どうしようかな?

>>ALERT<<

*COME TO PLAZA SING WED NIGHT TO DO SAI GANG! MOVE FURNITURE! CONTACT ME FOR MORE INFOMATION*

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2009-09-11T10:20:00.002+08:00

imba! wood sculpture using chainsaw!

【ニコニコ動画】「ジェイソンさん」　おっきな　澪を彫る！　「けいおん！」

but if u dun hav niconico acc i think cannot view it.... wadeva.

wah buy alot of things liao.

Hardisk ah, eyepiece ah, mouse ah, almost bought a new computer jus now when visiting comex.

Speaking of comex, why giv a different name when its jus like it fair? In fact i tot it was bad compared to the regular it fairs/pc shows.

Nothing much. Hoho shouldn go tml.

Wah damn xiong, spliting all the scans up.

CM2010 need 3gb space to install, looks like its gonna have loads of 1337 shitz. Too bad busy with work cannot play.

Faster finish and play.

Wad about jap E2 final test tml?

Sian.

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2009-09-09T12:29:00.002+08:00

Im over 80kg liao. But recently i keep goin for buffet. Den the thing about buffet is that, pay so much liao, so must eat beyond the normal intake, so wun lugi. But with that mindset, i will end up gaining alot of weight.

So how? Maybe i go buffet have a small meal can liao. Choose the nice ones and take a few bites.

Neways my motivation/enthusiasm for my business goin to die again, i need to refocus soon and physically move forth.

Shit tml jap mini test, hope i dun fail.

And sat is final test wtf.

Start studying now.

AOH ended.

2009-09-08T18:09:00.002+08:00

wake up 6am everyday, 8pm den work end. 5 hours shift daily for 5 days. 1km road march to cookhouse.

Xiong ah.

Not alot of ppl that i know came to aoh lol. Sian.

Frm time to time some ppl i seen before but dunno/forgot who they are passby/came my booth, i jus try to avoid/ignore them. I dunno their name also, den also nt say we very close, so i dunno how to react. Dunno should i say, "Hey hi! You rmb me?", "Hmm, you look familiar..." So i choose to ignore....

Den in another similar situation, i have ppl who approach me instead of ignoring me. Like i rmb gt 1 fuhua sempai who found me familiar, so she asked me if im frm fuhua. Seriously no idea who is she sia, no clue.

Another 1 was 2 army dudes who was previously frm sispec charlie coy, den they keep staring at me cos i looked familiar.

Neways actually im interested to be part of an big event, and aoh is definitely one of it. But too bad me only have micro-level involvement, hope next time i can have a chance to run such big events lol.

Everyday aoh gt alot of ppl coming. This is no surprise as it was all carefully planned.

First day, thursday, the bored ppl and schools will come. Can see girls frm ite, sec skool, jc, ncc girls.

2nd day, friday, more schools will come, and many army camps will also come since bookout day can combo.

3rd and 4th day, sat and sun, weekend dunno where to go have fun jiu try come AOH and plus those TRUE ARMY FANATICS.

5th day, monday, school holiday loh, many cute lil kids come and they get very excited, very n2.

Overall nt alot of chio bu leh, only like 3~4 per day. Maybe all come when i off-duty, or maybe mission world de aircon nt attractive enuff for ppl to come.

Now that its over, im here at home, scanning da postcards, i think i have, 160+ done, thats like more den 15% done i think.

And whee, megamcspicy is back. Woooo!

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2009-08-25T20:34:00.002+08:00

recent chpts of Negima is so exciting. Every week when its released, i giv in to the temptation to read it, when im supposed to store up and wait for stupid chuangyi to publish it. Or at least wait for 20+ chpts den read at one shot. But like i said, too exciting liao, cant wait for next week for the next chpt to release.

Heng it was a weekly series. I think if its a monthly series i will die.

Today we got to do some serious video editing stuff instead of jus cut opening, ending, burn. Xiong ah. So engrossed until forgot lunch.

Ok la should sleep early.

argh.

2009-08-24T23:52:00.002+08:00

Summary of my thoughts today.

I wan buy PS3 slim and play valkyria chronicles and tales of vesperia.
i wan to buy a desktop
i wan to preorder CM2010
i know a levels is coming and i know im am nt studying as i should be, but i have come to agree that the reason i retook a levels in the first place is to get a better grade to increase my chance of getting the jap scholarship. Intially 4 months is already a tall order, now 2 months liao left, only if a miracle happen den i can get the results i wan. So by rights i should jus give up and dun waste my effort, since studying anymore/anyless, doesnt have any purpose for me. But i will still study for a levels frm time to time, when i feel like it, as long as i dun hav anything important to do. Even tho i dun need physics, but im sure studying physics is a better use of time than playing dota. But if i gt ideas i will brainstorm when instead of studying. Yes this is wad i will do.
Tml do video.
Ideas for cafe to brainstorm with stanley.
i wan sing kbox
i wan go swimming
i wan play basketball
i wan play soccer.
prepare for life after ord
sleep.

Must pen/type down my thoughts before my head explode.

2009-08-19T21:32:00.002+08:00

Ah the last time i blogged was that incident...

Now the situation generally cooled down liao la, tho like a week ago the flame was revived for awhile due to certain unreasonable things that happened. For me, it has concluded. Wadeva happen before doesnt matter as long as it doesnt happen again. Its quite tiring to get troubled with it. And all that hate generates too much negative energy, unhealthy for me.

Alot of thoughts goin thru my head the past few weeks, but lazy to blog cos doing other stuff or jus simply lazy. But those thoughts jus keep accumulating until i think my head's spinning, so i gotta get them out of my head.

That reminds me.

Stupid clipmark.com

This site gt this firefox add-on which allow me to clip away portions of the webpage, and save it on their site. So i clipped alot alot alot of infomation like awhile ago. Den jus as i was planning to go look at them, i found out my acc was gone.

What the fuck.

All the clips i made all gone.

I gt this habit to pen down my thoughts on paper, phone, blog, wall, etc. Den forget them completely. Cos i everyday thinking of alot of things. Politics ah, ideas ah, food ah, game ah, soccer ah, nonsense ah....... Den if i dun unload all these thoughts den i will find it very hard to multi-task. Like today i dun understand english. ( no la where gt so imba, but i really was unable to process certain simple info today la )

So with my clips gone, i feel like part of my brain jus rotted away. Parts of my memories gone.

Like sometimes when i accidentally delete the notes i store on my phone. I will also feel very sad. Usually i will end up doing nothing for the week cos i dunno wad to do.

Speaking of space, my computer struggling for i think 1 year liao. Low on space. Always must spend hours to delete things to make space for new stuff. So i decided to buy a new harddisk.

What the. $146 for 1 TB. My old 160GB was like $140. Summore the physical size only X2 bigger. ( my old external harddisk is very small ). Technology advancement is scary.

And i brought an earpiece. I brought 1 only jus recently but the quality really lousy. Den the rubber coming off liao, wire exposed, some 'thing' drop off. Might as well jus buy a new 1. Spend abit more $$, for better quality.

I also wanted to buy a new psp battery. But i was thinkin that gt new psp coming out liao, maybe wait awhile more la.

My fingers hurt sia frm playing all that jubeat. Still haven unlock "in the name of love" and "evans", sian.

Hmm seems weird to tok about the topic of "Do-the-right-thing-guy = The-guy-every1-dislike?" I'll save that for next time.

I'll also save my "The Plan" for next time.

Currently wad i wan to do is to, find all these ppl. Last known contact at long as 6 years ago.

Ong Xuan Yi
John Khor
Quek Wei Chong
Billy
Childhood catching and tamiya frens.
Kelvin Lim Wang Wei
Ng Yong Zhi
Victor Seow
Chan Jia Wei
Sean Lin Wei Bin
Ong Jia Wen
Kaung Htat Win
Ho Wei Qiang
Koh Ji En
Tan Zhi Yu
Sharlene Goh
Ashley Mak
Nelson Wong
Tan Chien Hock
Low Kai Ming
Lim Jia Yi
Chia Yuan Feng
You Rui
David Tan Wei Han
Loo Yan Hui
Belinda Gan
Lin Qinwen
Tan Jin kai
Sean Chew
Some primary skool fren frm class 1L
Some primary skool kid that made me cry for the last time ( well 2007 is an exception, and chrono crusade and the girl who leapt through time too haha ) after scolding me cos i reading his comic den kena confiscated by teacher
My kindergarden fren who gave me myopia.
Weng Cong Sheng
Quek Jun Bao
Tan Jun Jie
Soh Jiaming
Tan Ke Qin
Eugene Ang
Mr Lim Kian Chuan
Mr Raymond Loh
Ms Chua
DR. MARCUS
Mr Charlie Chan
Primary skool indian maths teacher with a severed finger
The very cute junior in choir
Mr Go
Mr Govin
Song Ta
Zi Chao
Adrian Lam
Nasri
Nat
Jeffery
Wei Ming
Tony
Tan Jian Jun

And more la, alot of ppl that are nt within my reach anymore. Soon if i dun go find them, i will forget them completely.

Maybe some have forgetten me, maybe some are glad that i dun appear in their life anymore, maybe some like me and wan to sit down and have a cup of coffee and tok cock.

Ok tired liao, time to sleep.

Did i lose?

2009-07-31T16:11:00.003+08:00

Im feeling awful now. I dun hav to lie and act. i am affected by the personal attack the fucked up colleague made about me. Im nt made of steel =/.

I dunno how those soccer players who suffer verbal abuse from fans, public hatred, boos coming frm the stadium each time they touch the ball, tolerate all these nonsense and continue to play their game and continue to normally live their life.

Its okay as long as the team and the manager understands.

But i cant leh, its hard. Although i know there are many people behind me, but i still kena affected by his personal attack on me, worst still, it was a cowardly personal attack behind my back which i found out later.

He did something bad, i was unhappy with him tryin to distance himself away frm responsibility of the mistake, and tryin to bring up and make obvious the mistake, amplify and direct the hatred to others. Its only been days ago, where he himself commited a similar fucked up act. He also puts up a show and start doing something, tryin to show that hes doing work, even tho he has gt nothing to do with anything.

He always like to put up a show. Its amazing how the least hardworking guy was viewed as the most hardworking guy frm the view of outsiders.

People are really superficial. but den again if they are nt directly involved, how else will they know anything if we dun say anything? So they their only source of info is frm wad they can see and hear.

Is it our fault that we didn publish out our achievements in the newspaper? Perhaps i should make a medal for every 100hour of work i did.

At first when he was bitching about the situation, i jus allowed him to do so. But when he wants to distance himself away and put them blame on us, thats i cannot allow.

He didn even do anything to try solve the problem, instead he only giv us more trouble. We know about the issue on thursday, we tried to solve it. Shit happens. We have no choice. We already tried.

Perhaps with money, he could have solve the problem. Oh maybe thats why he was angry at our incompetence. Stupid people with no money tryin to take the main stage.

*saved draft and went out*
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Im lazy. Write until here can liao.

whats next

2009-07-22T18:47:00.002+08:00

Recently these few months i feel like i always blogging the same few things over and over again. Prolly means the same few things keep goin thru my mind, ova and ova.

Shall blog about my holiday trip this weekend, nothing amazing, but definitely must blog so i will remind myself nt to make the same mistake for the THIRD time.

Neways during this holiday, cos gt alot of time doing nothing, i was thinkin of alot of things. Basically whats next in my life?

So like how i usually start my daydream, first i ask myself, wad do i want in the end.

One must know where u wan to reach, before you know what do do to get there. If there is no destination, there is no direction.

For me its very simple. I simply want to have children. I want to take care of them, teach them things, guide them to the right path. See them become successful.

Sometimes i feel that this is jus my own selfish wish. To force my children to live my dreams. Or if we look at another angle, perhaps im jus better; or more willing, at helping others than helping myself.

When that came into mind, i think about the things i do the past years ( basically my time in NS ). Its quite true. Usually im slack, lazy, jus wanna sleep and have fun. But when im responsible for others (taking up appointments or leadership roles), i become very hardworking. I go the extra mile. I make sure the standard is achieved. But i dun see myself being very hardworking on the individual level.

Dun understand? Like say perhaps, i will walk down a few hundred meters under the hot sun jus to account for the platoon's engines, tho i checked it like ytd, jus to make sure. Or say i do platoon level area cleaning well, but i hardly care about my own bunk. I do extra work late into the night, but when i have time to study for a levels, i sleep at 8pm.

Perhaps?

So back to my goals in life, i guess i'll be pretty satisfied to simply be a househusband, say if my wife is relatively wealthy.

Nah i must pursue my career goals too lol.

My dream job, i dunno wad you call it, but basically i rent space/buy land, develop it, build stuff say restaurant or hotel or golf course, den run the business, become profitable, den ppl wan to buy it, i sell it and repeat process.

But for my ultimate career goal, i want to build a school. I think it was during secondary skool, during Dr. Marcus' lesson. He was tokin about if he was the principal of a skool, he will do this and that, give the students freedom to do anything, sayin something like, "People think children are immature so they cannot let them do wadeva they want, but they will be surprised at maturity they will achieve with the new found responsibility from the freedom they get."

I like to train trainee and conduct courses. I like to see the young develop and accomplish great things. Which is why building a skool of my own would be the ultimate liao.

During this holiday, for some reason concepts of wad the skool should be like start flooding my mind, and i wrote them all down. I shall leave that for another entry, cos it would prolly be longer that this entry, or maybe not.

Not jus that, alot of other ideas too. But this time i wun be like JC that time, abandon my studies to dream more about my ideas. Cos frm now till a levels is only a few months. After that i have the rest of my life to accomplish my dreams.

That being said, i shouldn even be here. I think i've used "i shouldn even be here" damn too often too lol.

Ok time to book in.

i made the same mistake twic

2009-07-20T20:51:00.003+08:00

16/07/09

Hows an average holiday like? What do people normally do? Do you book a ticket yourself and proclaim that you are goin on bagpacking/freeneasy, check in to the nearby hotel. Den start to walk ard the place. First day jus reached, so jus take it easy, have the local meals and sleep early, prepare for the busy days ahead.

Wake up and leave for popular landmarks and tourist attractions. Look ard, walk walk, look, and leave. Pay $$$ to go some museuem, damn big. Locals say needs almost the entire day to apprieciate the place, but prove them wrong by sprinting across the museuem and finish in less den an hour. By den should be mid-noon liao? Start to feel tired and wanna head back to hotel and sleep.

No joke. Returns to hotel asap and wash up and sleep.

Next day move on to the next city/state, cos already ‘visit finish the place liao’. But hw to go there sia? Wad mode of transportation? Nvm jus walk and see. Stay where ah? Nvm the previous hotel also find on the spot 1. Go there see wad ah? Nvm jus ask the taxi driver.

End up took X2 the amt of time to reach the wrong place. Dun even tok about go where sightseeing, we have been walking for ages, faster get a hotel first and take a break man.

And in the end found 1. Damn ex sia, $300 a night. Bo pian, only 1 here, summore so tired liao. Hungry, go out eat dinner.

Fuck. As I step out the hotel, across the road I see this signboard,

Hotel XYZ $20 per night only!!

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WTF!

Fuck it man, lets find some local travel agencies and join some random tour group.

Wun you wanna why me why I didn find out all these things before hand?

Hence you ask.

“Huh wad u mean sia, free n easy wad, no need plan 1, jus go with the flow, wan go where jiu where. Holiday jus relax wad, so stress plan for wad?”

Are you speechless?

Oh you’re not? Your trips are sumwad similar too? Oh ok, so that how an average holiday is like…

Eh gt some1 shocked ah? Why you so weird like me ah? I tot I was the only 1 to think that this kind of holiday is nonsense.

Ya lor, I also tot so. I tot that if u nt follwing tour guide, who follows the fully packed program prepared by the travel agency, of the places to visit, mode of transportation, meals, place to stay and other nessesary things that need to be taken care of, den you will have to plan the trip yourself which is very xiong.

Anyway the above is a fictional summary of a fucked up holiday imo. My trip with, was not THAT bad. Well you could co….. Nah I shouldn say anymore.

I believe that years ago… During jc… after, no probably during the trip itself, with my, I prolly told myself that I will nvr travel with again. Atrocious planning, the holiday was like amazing race, less the amazing part. We jus keep travelling and travelling. Nvr stop at one place to explore abit, jus keep goin.

But look now, history repeats itself. Making the same mistake again.

No Im not gonna let that happen.

That’s why I have taken so much actions, to change my fate.

But it proves too difficult, for I have fallen today, hence why im kp’ing about it. But nvm, today I shall rest well. Tml I will continue my fight.

160709, 2045

20/07/09

in the end i still lost the battle lol. but nvm the time waste spend on some spiritual reflection, to improve myself lol. tml night back in singapore liao, time to study.

i need slaves.

2009-06-29T21:08:00.002+08:00

Today was the most productive day of the month. Tho i could have been more productive by 2 hours cos i played 2 rounds of dota haha.

Too bad i cant bring my laptop in and neither hav i a good studying environment in camp. Too bad.

Printed alot of shit. Almost fin my printer ink liao which was only recently refilled.

Gt owned in dota recently, hope i play lesser dota now. I should nt go lan session anymore.

Study Study Study.

imba drawing

2009-06-19T20:32:00.001+08:00

Reminds me of last time the drawing of mona lisa with MS paint.

Its nt about the equipment, its all about the skill of the user.

Progress III

2009-06-06T11:59:00.002+08:00

Stunt happened. Monday i realised that somehow the mail i replied to moe didn get thru?!?!!!

Damn scared. Den i told hoho about it and he helped me replied and explain the situation. Den later that day moe called to tell me they accept my application xD

Ok the remaining step is to go down seab on monday to make payment, den it will become official.

But damn its tough to study....

My PROgress II

2009-05-30T11:56:00.002+08:00

So regardless of i get accepted anot, i went ahead to go buy tys of phy and chem. Cant find maths. Gonna chiong while doing cos tml. Den monday go check for moe's reply.

Acting on impulse nvr really gave me good outcomes.. But wadeva.

Argh ok time for a power nap. Den later go learn jap liao.

my progress

2009-05-29T23:07:00.002+08:00

Sent an email to request for late entry. There was a reply and she even remind me to reply before 31 may. But i only replied like an hour ago. Who works on sat and sunday? Den monday bu jiu 1st of june liao?

Wadeva man.

What will be, will be.

Whats left now, is to apply for the jap scholarship. Who knows i might get in even with my nonsense results!

Tml go buy books liao. Oh ya i wan buy new printer also.

Start studying asap.

Damn who's bright idea to throw all the study materials away....

tired.

2009-05-15T21:25:00.006+08:00

3 busy weeks finally come to a rest. After burning 2 consecutive long weekends i finally tot i can take a long break this week by taking off, but who knows why, suddenly i am arrowed to do a last min weekend duty again. wtf.

I also dun really rmb wad i was busy with, anyway the past 3 weeks have been tiring, and it doesnt help when i have a very, helpful, professional, honest and selfless colleague.

I cant believe some1 like him can actually have frens. How can u have fun with some1, share secrets with some1 and work with some1 when he constantly backstabs, lies, spread rumor, sabo and who-knows-wad-else-he-does.

Perhaps he really is a nice guy. Perhaps he is jus misunderstood. Perhaps i jus don't know him well enuff.

Maybe.

Haiz all the stupid spec politics.

Today i was disappointed. Went to the embbassy of japan to find out more info for apply for the scholarship. Cleared my doubts about it, im also cleared to apply for it. But apparently if u dun hav straight "A"s for a levels u hardly stand a chance.

i dun hav to kick myself for not studying cos even if i did i think i wouldn be able to get straight As, maybe 1 or 2 if im lucky. Im just nt built for jc.

But my fren more sad. He gpa gt 3.8 ah, supposedly sure get thru the initial screening 1, but by the time he ORD he will be too old for this scholarship.

I pray that he can defer army for it.

Recently i have been so into this thing, i pushed away all other plans i have in life, to make way for it. Now im feeling sad.

I dunno if i should retake a levels so i can stand a better chance to apply for that shit. I haven really thought about if i have enuff time to have effect.

Actually it doesnt help. Unless i can apply to take this year exam. But i dun hav enuff time to study and score excellent grades.

If not, next year july will be the last chance for me to apply. At that point of time even if i apply to take a levels, i haven even take the exam yet.

Haiz....

But maybe i should still apply, for the scholarship.

My mother always tell me the story about she tried to apply to this certain primary skool which is supposed to be hard to get in la. Supposedly u need donate lotsa munnie$ or know them or alumni of the skool. Didn get in thru the first wave, go into the lottery round. Lucky me, i was selected.

But in the end i move hse den transfer skool -.-"

Lau tian zu nong ren.

After asking my frens a few questions, obtain some informations, think think alot about it, i haven decided.

I should try for the scholarship no matter wad, at least i have A chance.
I need better A levels results to stand a higher chance.
But i must apply for this year's paper, or else its too late.
And guess what, last day of late application is 31 MAY.
3 days.

So many factors could have denied this outcome.
If i didn took the initiative to plan the platoon schedule i wouldn have freed myself from duty this weekend.
Den i wouldn have taken off.
At the same time if CSM didn burn my long weekends to miserable alternate duties i wouldn have wanted to take off this week to compensate myself.
stone could have been out or appearing offline.
LG could have been watching anime fullscreen for the whole night.
YJ could have been busy and thus unable to go there.

This reminds me of benjamin buttons.

I say this is a chance. One and only chance.

I do well or not, its the only chance i can ever have.

I think i'll do it.

I will apply for this year a levels.

suzumiya haruhi-chan 24

2009-05-02T13:45:00.000+08:00

epic "ahh" at 0:52. lol

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2009-04-26T17:10:00.002+08:00

And another month jus pass by liddat. Basically the month jus passby liddat. In between tho gt a few dangerous stunts and events, but generally quite smooth sailing. Next month NTM liao sian, but nvm it will be my last until many months later, or never =D. Woo cant believe back in january when i was lookin at the schedule, lookin forward to May. Now its jus a couple days away whee.

But im still very fat.

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2009-03-29T01:28:00.002+08:00

Woo watched detroit metal city today and it was great~ Its nt a movie to get inspirations la but generally quite a funny movie. Had many moments that gt me laughing.

Oh and chionged liar game manga to the latest chpt. Heng the latest chpt is the conclusion of round 3, so i dun need suffer as i wait for the next chpt. Watched the drama before and it was also good. Now i feel like finding galieo and watch.

Oh and i also gt a sudden urge to watch/read type-moon works; kara no kyoukai, tsukihime and fate/stay. For some reason i chiong obtain fate/stay de game and its anime.

So tired today, but for some reason i still haven sleep.

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2009-03-27T22:51:00.002+08:00

Sian today kena 3 extra for stupid mistakes. Dun wanna elaborate on it, sian =(. Just my luck that when i was lookin into the prospect of getting a scholarship, i kena so many nonsense trouble =/. I think 4 or 5 shits in a row liao. Sian.

Neways today shat at lot1 toilet. It was a horrible experience. Gt 2 china men and 1 toilet cleaning auntie having a discussion to solve some problems, in the toilet.

I dunno why they think that the toilet is a nice place to have a conversation. Wah still very heated sia. the 2 china men still argue for very long sia.

*in chinese*

A-san: "I cant get thru!" *he calling the manager*
B-san: "Hes prolly sleeping, thats why."
A-san: "No he hung up on me!"
B-san: "Hes sleeping... He cant even hear you. If i was sleeping i wouldn want to pick up the phone as well"
A-san: "No! Its nt like no1 pick up, its that he reject the call"
B-san: "Thats cos hes sleeping."
A-san: "Hes not!"
B-san: "He is."
B-san: "hes not!"

*B-san called the manager again*

B-san: "Listen for urself! Listen!"
A-san: "Hes sleeping la."
B-san: "You listen!"
A-san: "You dun get it do you."
B-san: "LISTEN!"

*and more of those nonsense*

Den in between the auntie jus chap in and insert a few sentences in the conversation between the 2 china men. Sentences that have no worth, jus say for fun only la. Like "ya lor", "haha", "stupid"

Neways later the auntie help them solve their problem la. Den they left.

Den finally can i finish my business.

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2009-03-26T23:05:00.002+08:00

Wheeee i submitted the uni application form. I jus tried for NTU, cant be bothered to try other places, my lousy results cant go anywhere 1 la. But its okay cos thats nt where im actually headed for.

There has been a slight deviation in my plans. I decide that i wan to study summore. I wan to experience the last phase of school life =D. After all, studying is fun isnt it?

DAMMIT I FINISHED MY CURRENT SERIES.

Tora Dora last epi downloaded liao haven watch.

Maria Holic last epi watched

Toaru Majutsu no Index last epi watched

Minami-ke Okaeri also finishing soon.

ONLY GT GINTAMA RUNNING BUT I ALSO STOPPED WATCHING FOR AWHILE

Full metal panic i dun hav the feel to watch leh

I guess that means its time for my anime hiatus. Until gt many good anime stock up liao den 1 shot chiong ah.

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2009-03-22T18:29:00.002+08:00

I guess i gotta start revising my work. Damn why did i throw away my notes =/...... That is why we should always listen to wad our seniors say, especially when they are ppl that care for you. The tell u wad to do, how to do, is cos they dun wan u to make the same mistake as them. If they dunno any fuck shit, they also wun kaypoh mah. Like they dunno psp so they wun tell me how to downgrade it.

I believe that its is the seniors responsibility, to ensure that the juniors do the right things, if u care for them. Cos kids, young adults, simply haven seen, walk, experience as much as the old ppl. The young ppl can think wadeva they wan, but they are so naive, in the end the seniors must do wadeva that is necessary to make sure they dun make the same mistake as they did in their days.

The seniors must teach the young wad they learnt, so the young can carry on from where the old ppl left off and venture new terrians. Instead of letting them start of frm the beginning, den no new grounds will be chartered.

But one must nt be blinded in the process where one force their unfulfied dreams onto their juniors. Instead, our guidance is to ensure that they stay on track and reach their dreams. But who knows what others truely want?

Like this example i often use, i used to learn piano when i was tiny. But i complained and was lazy to learn. So my parents stop the lessons. Now how i wished i was forced to learn piano.

There is only one life. Somethings ah, only gt 1 chance. Go on a oversea trip can be done anytime. Backpacking can be done anytime. But going overseas to backpack with ur frens when u are 18 can only be done during ur one year as a 18yrs old.

Jus like studying can be done anytime. But studying as a kid is defintely different as studying as an adult.

So some stuff, gotta force them onto the juniors, something extra. They can make do without it, at least they have it if they need it.

Somethings that i wanna do but cos i too old liao, cannot achieve le. Neways i guess i write down some of the stuff i wanna do before i die, so as to remind myself.

Write a novel
Film a movie
Perform with a live band infront of the public
To study overseas
To have a child by 25
Learn to play piano
Make my own techno tunes
Learn japanese
Go cosplay
Do a musical
Run a business
Go on an aimless backpack trip in europe
learn hw to make tea
get drunk
jump high enuf to do a slamdunk
score a goal in soccer in a finals.
Live in a gigantic house
Fight a tiger
Wrestle a panda
Survive a nonsense thunderstorm in the middle of the ocean
Survive and escape a deserted island

Well thats that for now. Time to book in.

Oh ya did i mention my hse kana robbed?

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2009-03-21T14:29:00.000+08:00

When i jus entered army i was 78kg, maybe even 80kg.

Ytd, friday, i was 78kg.

Am i as fat as before?

My biceps are smaller compared to last month.

I did a few pull ups. I stopped at 7, but i was still feeling fine, prolly can do at least 12.

But back when i was in bmt, i could only do 2.

So i conclude that i jus gained muscle weight xD.

No la i understand i gained alot of weight since pass out.

But cant blame me, gt macdonalds downstairs my hse. So i everyday during week end will makan mac.

My hse also gt nice roti prata better den jalan kayu.

I cant cut down on eating, cos it is such a pleasurable activity.

Haiz but still gt SOC and ippt year 2 to clear.

Siannnnnnnnn.

Whee anyway To Aru Kagaku no Railgun gonna be animated.

Want to bring xbox in to company but too much trouble, sian.

Tml go malaysia makan yay.

Many ways to do things, different results different futures.

2009-03-20T21:14:00.004+08:00

I forgot to bring charger for my phone, so i went to kope frm jona and charge. After i finish charging, i forgot to return to him for 3 days. When i returned him the charger, nothing happened.

I rmb many many weeks before, he took my hp charger too. And nvr return for like fuck 1 week, so i gotta use my other phone. I was pretty angry, but learning from past experiences, i decide that getting angry immediately shouldn be the way to go. Must go find out why, understand why and be forgiving.

Neways found out that he was jus lazy. Well forgive and forget, i also fuck care.

If i had gone crazy and scold him about it, den i this week forget to return him his charger i bu jiu hav to harakiri? So in the end there was no issues.

That also reminds me of another incident.

Back many many months ago, i was returning key with my fren. I had some stupid idea which supposed to reduce time wastage and use less effort to accomplish the task. Wadeva anyway we split up to do 2 things la and we are supposed to meet up together after our shit is done and we go back bunk together like gays.

I took a long time. Fucking long time. Cos i was so tired, sweaty, hot. And the office was like blasting the aircon. No1 was in the office.

So i jus took my time.

Den i suddenly rmb i told zhi xuan to wait for me. So i rushed down.

But i see no1.

Maybe he gt some problems. Lets wait.

Im sure i waited a long time. 10mins. Cos i believed that he will keep his word and wait for me.

But after 10mins i had it. Im positive that he had pang seh me, cos i took my fucking time, + 10mins, cfm more den enuff time to return 1 key.

I headed back to bunk, fucking angry, shouting along the way.

i already preparing my script to fuck zhi xuan upside down and giv him a fucking 1 X good one.

But learning frm past experiences, i jus, let go.

When i reach back, i realise the whole story and it become forgivable.

Jus a few weeks ago, he gt posted back here; he ooc cos hes lung punctured ( nah nt so bad la. i dunno he wad problem lung gt hole la ). We still can tok cock and friendly friendly liddat.

Hmm but i hav been scolding my bunk buddy on several occasions liao. But he really make fucking stupid mistake and fucking make me angry.

But maybe next time i should relac and think about it again, dun wanna have cold war with my bunk buddy and lose a fren.

Ah must prepare my speech for the BCC thats coming in this monday liao.

1 year old.

2009-03-13T23:45:00.002+08:00

Ok, jus another year of sleeping, den jiu ord lo. Nt bad la up till now every few month gt new happenings so wun get bored. After pass out do attachments, den first NTM, den see new bmc, den see new pc, now see new bpcc, bcc coming soon at the end of the month.

And oh alwyn is in seletar too whee. Next time when he pass out can play bb together =D.

1 year liao so wad have i decided? I dunno. The whole year nvr even think about it. No la nt so bad la gt think about it la, but only remind myself that gt this issue must solve soon, den next moment go back to sleep liao.

To study or not? To start business or not?

I nt planning to study nt say cos i too good for the courses the local institute have, but cos of my lousy results the courses im eligible are of no relevant or usefulness to me. So if i really have to study, i have to either retake a levels to score a better grade or go futher my studies elsewhere like poly or something else.

But i cant study. Later say i enroll in poly den waste 3years there, den bu jiu back to square one, or worst still phd. Took up jap lessons since last month, this time is nt forced 1, is i ownself throw $$$ to study 1. But still very hard sia, i dun hav much discipline to study everyday. Jus like in skool time, last min pia mug, score for the very bare minimum. Den as time pass more shit i dunno accumulate, den reach the breaking point den i cannot cope, den jiu gg liao.

So should i go out work? Start business? When ppl hear i wan start business, they will ask me if i gt capital anot. I will go about sayin that if gt idea, no need capital. Den they will say wad no need idea gt $$$ jiu can make $$$ den i also lazy to complain here la.

Currently i is dun hav that mega idea to make me rich la, so no point i die die try start business. So mean i must go out work now ah? But 1 fucked up A level cert wan find wad job? Isnt this kind of life, doing this kind of work the reason i wan to start a business myself? Thats why the thought of signing on keep appearing in my head, maybe a short term 6 months contract? If my understudy is ok, and my relation with the new csm and oc is good i might actually sign on for 6 months. And who knows frm there maybe u see me in uniform for the next 10 years, den i will drink beer in the mess with yanhui liao.

Uni applications until 1 april ah? I dun hav much time to decide sia. Actually if i really have to i can apply next year =D. Wadeva. I shall sleep now, study in the morning tml.

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2009-02-22T18:32:00.002+08:00

Damn im fat.

I ran 3km on friday. And i almost black out. I was seeing countless stars. My chest hurts. My back hurts.

Its cos im fat.

I dun understand. I dun eat breakfast, i eat little lunch, little dinner. I have didn bring any snacks to camp.

But im faaaaat

76.5kg today.

Im 78kg during jc

And when i see the old pictures, damn im fat.

Reaaaaaalllllyyyy lazy to get my fat ass to go for a run.

But thats the only way to lose weight.

Haiz.........................

And damn........ my psp is in chehao's bag......... now its 6.35pm T_T.

*LATEST NEWS*

MY ANIME MEMORY CARD IS WITH MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

yay so nvm liao, can put in new anime den later before book in get my psp frm him can liao.

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2009-02-14T00:18:00.019+08:00

How wonderful and amazing how small actions can lead to interesting results. Alwyn told me about meeting siang yee. He noticed cos he saw some fuhua pics den he asked if he knew me. He also had his scouts group picture too. If alwyn didn entered his bunk to take alook, den he would not have seen the picture and i would have nvr known they know each other etc etc. Funny how things turns out in life lol.

Neways i think i scored roughly above 50% for my jap spelling test. Nt bad la =D

Well 2nd lesson was still very fun. 2 hours fly past like nothing. Reminds me of lessons in Just Maths with Dr Marcus and chem tutions by Charlie Chan, omg hes C.C.

( I was sadded for a moment, for while i was searching for charlie chan's picture, i realise i dun have it. 4 years worth of pictures were lost the last time my harddisk crashed T_T )

Argh the best that i could find frm my old entries.

=( Pictures of charlie chan dun hav.............

Neways this would be a good chance to post about SOYA 2009~

310109 ah? I rmb was weekend la, friday cos den sat morn book out shower and chiong liao. Oh that day took cab like 3 times sia.

First go cab home. Den cab to ngee ann. First time come ngee ann, dunno how to get frm where to where, lucky gt marshaller deployed to guide us.

When we reach the place ( btw we is only me and yj la, dunno who else wanna go this kinda nonsense. So if wan join us tell me ah lol ), fucking small sia. First at the entrance gt the registration counter there, den to the left gt a small wooden stage and 6~7 stalls ard it. Den gt 1 LT there. To the right of the counter need to climb some stairs like 1 storey higher. The other side roughly as big as the left side, jus that its narrow, stretch further. There also roughly 6~7 stalls.

Gt wad sell snacks, drinks, usual doujinshi, pictures, bookmarks, stuff. Yj was planning to spend big $$$$ down here but in the end nvr use any cos it turn out smaller den expected, sell de things also pretty much wad other places gt.

But quite alot of cosplays ah. Gt card captor sakura, code geass, naruto, zero no tsukaima, left 4 dead.... blah blah.

Saw a few frens there frm fuhua. Basically gt 1 guy frm yj class came cosplaying Lelouch frm code geass, and few of his frens come to support him. But hes posing nt very nice ah. But costume nt bad la, if he made it himself haha.

Neways this event was pretty fun and i enjoyed myself better than at AFA 2008.

Most of the activities were in the lecture room where they had individual contest, singing contest, karaoke, team performance. Den in between gt some breaks, where we all can go out and take pictures of the cosplayers.

Oh good thing is the big open space outside the building, or else dunno where den can take picture of them sia.

Lets post some pictures for starters

Firstly the individual contest.

Wasnt very good la. The costume of the contestant no problem la, but many of them didn/cannot act out their chara due to the bad scenarios they were given to act out.

All credits to the emcees that day ( Tifa and Aerith ) for entertaining us throughout the day. Making the bad parts of the show bearable to endure through.

Then there is the first contestent

Dunno frm where, i also dunno wad he was doing haha.

Den sasuke

Also dunno wad he doing

Some chara frm chobits which i dun rmb

A pretty well done shana.

Very well done simca =D

Then there is this fashion show. Nothing much, jus watch only lor.

Next up was the singing competition. Some really didn sing very well =(, like no 1 pay attention to them. While on the other hand, gt ~3 very good singers, surprisingly so for a cosplay event.

Den finally its time for the group event.

First was a haruhi skit which was quite cute and funny la haha.

The 2nd 1 was some random parody of gundam 00. But it was very entertaining and funny haha.

Den the 3rd part very random 1 la. Tell them to act out a random situation. The haruhi 1 is very lame, wad would they do if they are stuck in a candy shop. Den for the innovators, is let the crowd decide, so guy this guy who cosplay the old guy

asked, wad would they do if there are zombies all over the world.

He was so high and overflowing with enthusiasm, the mc ask of him to be the zombie. And few more were dragged down too and suddenly gt platoon of zombie liao.

Den alot of funny nonsense happen, i too lazy to describe haha.

And so in the end, the zombies won the group performance =D

Soon after we zhao frm that place and cab to discovery center. It was at its closing ceremony liao. Nvm jus nice can take some pictures and stuff. Seems like SOYA was more funny den this place, lucky our gamble had paid off.

ooo imba gundam. The eyes gt light 1 den summore can release dry ice 1. Very cool.

And here are more pictures haha.

I really like this cosplay, sumhow the essence of gintoki can really be felt frm this cosplayer.

Woah done liao. Now can play tales of vesperia liao yay

BURNOUT

2009-02-13T22:01:00.002+08:00

After the cny break, the following week jiu start the 5+2 attachment marathon. Monday morning go rakit pool to suntan whole day. 9pm on the same day gt another attachment, gerald de recce la come dunno take 15 boats, xiong leh. I jus help them prepare stores and send them off, luckily no need do attachment for more den 24 hours straight.

Wed and thurs cover safety at my own camp, had to wear smart 4, face and lips already sunburn, now my arms also kena sunburn T_T.

Friday go outsea again with ocs ppl from my intake. Saw alvin, teosian, jason, and several familiar faces but i dun rmb, maybe frm sispec crossover 1.

Oh and i took up japanese lessons since last sat, 130209. I dunno if this would be another waste of $$ anot cos i already had difficulties learning chinese, now still wan chu stunt and study jap. Fuck tml is sat already and i haven study for the spelling test!

Oh ya and here is a video to watch.

WORST DUNKS

But the lesson was rather fun. Lets see how long will it remain fun, maybe by 4th lesson i will pon it despite paying for it myself lol. Rather small class, 4 girls 5 guys. Every1 seems like +/- my age liddat. Even gt nsf ppl who knows Vernon. Once again showing hw small singapore is.

A random note, my neck and back is hurting like nonsense once again. TML I WILL GO LAVENDER.

Neways monday book in den go ocs attachment again.... Quite xiong, drive alot. First time did full throttle draining. Actually quite easy. At the same time gt comfortable with maneuvering at full throttle liao. Can chu alot of stunt liao, sharp angle turn, splash/spray water.

Den tuesday drive whole afternoon.

Wed come back fever liao. Need to do many post-attachment admin nonsense. Send damaged equipments blah blah wadeva. With my fever cannot think right ah, cannot get simple things done. Much thanks to Joshua for helping me out that day, helping me do every single nonsense i asked of him, i jus have to empty out my thoughts to him, and he process and carries out for me.

Why cant he be like this everyday =D.

But neways, thanks again.

Fever, report sick. 38.5 degree, att c WOOO...... if only i could be happy. I felt so unwell, after getting back at 4pm i jus slept all the way to 7.30pm? Head still very pain, dizzy, all the nonsense.

Reach home 10+? Shower liao first thing jiu go sleep.

Sleep till 9am, wake up on com dunno do wad i forgot liao, eat porriage den sleep. Lunch eat guo tiao tang and sleep again. 5pm wake up dunno eat wad dinner, dunno do wad nonsense, den sleep again until 5am today. Basically i dunno wad happened on thursday.

Den today recovered WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe

So mass gamed. Dota, cm, fifa, tales of vesperia, anime, manga. But tml gt jap lesson must study...... Heck still gt tml morn xD

Sunday gt duty sia sian. Cannot take off on monday to combo holiday.

Type quite alot of shit liao, maybe tml den post a few more nonsense before goin bookin in =(

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2009-01-27T11:30:00.002+08:00

Same old arguments, same old threats, same old apologies, same old results?

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It feels like new year jus keep gettin sianer and sianer. It is almost like becoming a staff parade. If only some1 would call to tell me chinese new year celebration cancelled and otot haha.

Is life so boring? What is fun?

No im nt complaining about my life being nt exciting, in fact im enjoying myself quite alot the past few months. But it seems like my defination of fun has changed and seems quite weird.

I enjoy getting attention, but recently i prefer to stay under rader and stay in small groups. Perhaps cos in army stand out too much get arrowed only =D.

I dun like window shopping. I dun shop either. I generally dun enjoy it. When i buy things, its a mission. To obtain the X good in the closest avaiable outlet, at an price proportional with its value and to leave the scene as soon as possible.

But at several occasions i found it fun to randomly look at stuff in the shop, play with them, visualise it in action, spending up to an hour jus doing something which i usually dun enjoy. I dunno why.

Tho i dun shop, i like to go buy grocery. It is always very fun, cept the part where i have to carry the grocery home T_T.

Simple things makes me happy. Why some ppl so sian of life? You are the one that determines how ur life turns out. No such things as we dun have a choice, cos we always do. Like if the CSM wants me to do weekend duties next week, i have the choice to say NO and dun turn up for COS. But maybe after that i go DB and get charged or something lol.

Heck, i shall go back to play dota, before i book in tonight T_T

Spring Cleaning

2009-01-24T02:49:00.002+08:00

I dislike throwing things away. I rmb when i was a kid, my mother used to throw alot of my things away when she was angry. Maybe some gameboys, some trading cards, who knows wad other stuff she threw. During peace times, sometimes she also anyhow throw my stuff away cos they were deemed to be rubbish. Prolly cos of that, i am scared to throw my stuff away in case gt some important stuff.

But however, i dun feel the pain if i accidentally throw away important stuff, prolly due to the same reason that i hav many important shit thrown away by my mother that i have become immuned to it. That reminds me of an incident.

Last time when our family hired a maid, she threw away a box of stuff, that she tot was rubbish. It was actually my father's collection of valuables. Like his photos ah, medals ah, artpieces ah, all the precious stuffs. And she jus threw all that memories away. A great loss. But my father didn kill her, i would if i were him.

So anyway, jus now when i was doing spring cleaning, i finally decided to throw away my secondary skool stuff, as well as jc stuff la. I guess im definitely nt goin back to study anymore i guess. Well actually if i have to study i can get new notes la lol. But feel abit sad ah, to see all my handwritten notes all throw away. All my funny nonsense essays, the test papers with ungodly LOW results, subject files with photocopied tutorial assignments, test paper with "who are you?" remarks. All the nonsense la haha. Now its all gone. Hope i dun regret, or else need to dig the rubbish bin liao tml.

Time to get back to spring cleaning, only 30% done.

NTM

2009-01-18T19:43:00.003+08:00

Basically jan was a rather boring month. Doing NTM, be prepared for activation, in other words, doing nothing but wait for something to happen.

But nt so bo liao la. Go gym these few weeks. But still gain weight leh =/

Gt 1 NTM scare, very sian feeling, anyway in the end dun hav should be happy liao.

But still kena turn out, twice in 2 consecutive days is also quite sian.

Gt many intra and inter platoon politics goin on. If every1 jus do abit of extra work and try nt to be selfish, none of the problems would exist. But a too peaceful life would be too boring for army isnt it? =D

Life in army really isnt very sian, its eventful, stuff to do everyday, things happening all the time. But being in army for me is like in another world, it has nuthing to do with the outside world. The moment we step out of the camp, its like i remained the same as when i jus enlisted. Well nt absolutely la, in the sense for example i haven really settle down on wad i wan to do in the next few years for sure. I haven learn hw to drive.

I used to say that during training phase, too shag to think about such things. But now in unit, too lazy to think about such things. Nothing to do either tok cock, eat, play sports, gym, psp, read, sleep, or even jus rot.

Oh, haven buy new year clothes also. That reminds me of the list of things i wanna buy.

FAT psp
Wallet
PS2
Shoes
Clothes

Heck, now time to book in liao. Aiyo

Code Geass R2

2008-12-28T13:58:00.003+08:00

Took a long time for me to consolidate my thoughts on the end of the series. Was reading forums about their discussion on the series too. Abit gay, several topics have discussion up to 800+ pages, hitting 900 soon.

My first thoughts upon the end of the series, was that its good. The way they end things with Zero Requiem... Aiyo still very hard for me to write out wad i actually feel about this series afterall.

R2 had several sad parts, first was the shirley death. Which was pretty tragic, rolo was really a bastard for killing her, she was no threat.

Den 2nd was the rolo's death. Tho before this point i hated him like nonsense, but he manage to redeem himself in his death wtf. Hes death made me teary eyed. Damn sad during the part he was telling lelouch hw he felt, why is he doing this, even tho he cant hear any of it cos he was geassed. For once, he is acting on his own will.

3rd is prolly lelouch's death la. Doing all this stunt to direct the world's hatred on him, bringin it all to an end with his death.

Sad that couldn see a kalulu ending =(

Tho in 2nd season gt a few crap arcs, like the Charles and Marianne 1, the supposed bad guy motive suddenly became 'supposedly' good. But anyway it doesnt matter, he 'died' soon after.

In the end, i still generally enjoy the series to a large extent. Im nt goin tok much about it, but Code Geass is indeed a must watch.

Code Geass R1 review

2008-12-22T18:55:00.003+08:00

Once again, yj's recommendations proved to be great works. Code Geass, the anime which i have refused to watch for 2 years? Due to the fact i wasnt interested in its name, its character didn catch my attention and cos i didn spot it myself lol.

Neways jus suddenly, like 1 week ago, i decide to try code geass. I think its cos im running out of anime to watch, i only left like 3 series on my harddisk liao. Nt bad for an anime which is a few years old, i gt it within 2 days. Unlike mahouraba which i rmb took 6 months....

I gt it on my psp, the first 5 episodes for a start. There was a day, many of them go nights out and play dota. I decided to stay in camp n relac. I watched my weekly dose of Tora Dora, Today in class 5-2 and akane-iro ni somaru saka liao. So nothin to watch so i finally start code geass.

And that was it.

The next moment i was conscience of my surrounding, was when i was at the end of episode 5.

There isnt many occasions when i will enter this state of absolute concentration. I rmb last sat, in camp, while i was chionging code geass. I was totally oblivious to the surrounding, 3 hours was gone in an instant.

Code Geass is about this guy, who has a simple wish. He wants to live happily ever after with his sister. And maybe also to avenge his mama.

In the first episode, he acquired a power. The power of absolute obedience. With this power, he starts his revolution, and work towards his little wish.

This is jus a very brief n lousy introduction to code geass, cos i dun wan to spoil any more of the story liao. This anime belongs to the "Just-watch-the-damn-thing-cos-its-good" catagory.

But it seems that everything in this world definitely gt ppl dun like. But i liked it, i think its good, very good.

Its story is similar to Death Note. But Light really is like shen liao, too imba. Lelouch is jus simply smart, but he is more human. To Light, he really reach the level that killin ppl, even those close to him, err wait, maybe he doesnt... So he doesnt give a fuck who dies... Well anyway Lelouch, who has gt more frens in that sense, he goes thru more emo shit. Hes close ones suffering becos of his actions, but he cannot stop halfway, cos more blood has to be shed, so those that already had wouldn be in vain. But that is debatable la, in another perspective, its nvr too late to stop, so that no more will die. This is where the enemy of Lelouch comes into picture.

Another difference is that Light nt jus ability like shen, he really wants to become Shen. He wants to change the world, change it the ideal world. Lelouch is more human, he wants to create a peaceful world, for his sister.

Argh if go watch jiu know liao la.

Neways Code Geass gt less xinjitsu involved den Death Note, less stress on the head. Cos Death note is like, telling to come play along the game, try to figure out wat is happen as the story progress. Lets figure it out together. Its almost like its interactive, the reader use the blian alot like tryin to solve a puzzle liddat.

Code Geass is more normal, its really jus watching the story. It jus tells u wad happen, and spare u frm thinkin too much, but u are welcomed to think if u wanna. But cos things are happening everywhere, so there isnt much time for deep thoughts, unlike Death Note where its only about Kira Vs L.

Code Geass gets one reflecting about the issues they bring up in the story. Like for example jus now i say that 1 la, wad killing more to justfied the killed. Death Note is more of clapping at the genius of L and Light.

Now why am i comparing Code Geass and Death Note..... Hmm i jus seem to link them together...

*SPOILER*

There were many brilliant scenes, but i always have a special liking to those emo scenes, and there were 2 that was great imo.

The first was the part where Lelouch had to make Shirley forget everything about Zero and Lelouch. Similar to the part in Fortune Arterial where Erika was to erase Kohei's memories. Losing the memories they had together, the happy times, angry times, emo times wadeva, things that establish wadeva relationship towards one another. Ahh, and i have to thx boon kiat for interupting me twice at the same part of the episode =D.

The 2nd part was when Lelouch accidentally commands Euphemia to kill all japanese. That wasnt emo, but it gave the feeling like, wah truly wasted. How did things turn out like this. I totally wasnt expecting that turn of event. I feel for Lelouch, a surprise that he didn commit sucide after that mistake. Having no choice, he used this situation to the advantage of the order of the black knights, at least Euphemia unjust death wouldn have been even more unjust.

Haiz after recalling this 2 scenes now im sad...

I'll be off to play fifa 09 now. Go trash some teams. Den come back for Code Geass R2

ARGH SO BUSY!

2008-12-21T23:12:00.003+08:00

Sia la, 6 day work week for 2 weeks sia. COS duties, attachment, weekend burned, all the nonsense.

Finally, i can have 4 days off.... until 26 when im goin back for COS again.... Argh, bad experiences...

Saw gerald the other day when i was covering safety for smi, they bringing the recce trainees to come play in the mini-river. Lol until now still on course, gt longer than armour anot ah?

Cat shit stinks. I didn go visit the cat's bunk for roughly a week cos its so freakin smelly! Tokin about this cat, it is really damn cute. Usually when i come find it for fun, most of the time it is nt there, dunno go where play play liao. If its hungry, it will go back and wait for some1 to visit it. Den the moment u open the door, it will meow meow and rush over and go round n round ur legs. The moment u pour out the cat food it will chiong the food, den after its full it will fuck care u and go back to relac 1 corner.

Sometimes at weekend, if no1 feed it, i think it will go out and hunt by itself. How else it can survive 2 days without food sia.

Speaking of animals, that reminds about ytd sia. When i cycling in camp, suddenly gt this mad dog chase me sia, damn scary. He make those "rrrrrr" sound and chase me like nonsense. Luckily i came frm a downslope and was at high speed. I chiong away frm it into safety. It took like 15mins before my heartbeat goes back to normal.

Finally can rest. I think tml i will go n sleep, recharge. Den at night den go eat shokudo =D.

Whee im still nt in camp!

2008-12-08T21:27:00.003+08:00

Yay today can sleep at home! But tml jiu hav to go back =(, wed SOC, thursday go on attachment, think is ocs 1...

Sat also gt attachment, sian, burned. Den following monday, sat cos.

For this week, i think tora dora vol 1 and 2 should be enuff to entertain me.

Haiz i really wan to learn to play piano... But takes up too much time..

I really wan to learn japanese but i cant even handle chinese!

Maybe i will go install Atlas next week, den play fortune arterial, i hav come to accept that a translation will nt be done for at least a few million years.

Ok den, today shall go sleep early.

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2008-12-08T11:56:00.002+08:00

To enjoy good food or to lose weight..

haiz....

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2008-12-07T02:23:00.006+08:00

about suzu, the 3 wonderful anime series, past week in camp, ah ho, fat vs food.

Whee did 2.5 attachments the past week. First day was safety boat for guards, they swimming for 2~3 hours? Den the 2 other attachments is safety boat for sispec aslc river crossing. Wah den whole day jus stay there, kena free frag by the sun.

This season's anime are really interesting, nice to watch, tora dora and the akaneiro ni somaru saka, i liked zero no tsukaima too which was awhile ago. If any1 is lookin to start a new series, can try them out.

That reminds me of suzumiya haruhi... wtf 1 or 2 years liao? Still haven come out...

Whee book in on tuesday~

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2008-11-30T19:36:00.003+08:00

Damn stupid sia the training. Boat only gt me, gucci and medic attend the training only, less than 20 from the whole of the camp. Den summore all 3 of us is status, so we jus watch them suffer and relac 1 corner.

But dealing with our platoon man are tough sia. I rmb that day when we were in the platoon office chilling, a few of the more 'outspoken' man came into the office and we had our 'official' first encounter.

All 3 of us, the new specs, simply dunno how to handle them. I felt powerless, unable to talk back to them when they shoot comments at us. I jus diam diam and sat still at a side. Only after they zhao i was able to relac, for awhile.

But on friday when all the other specs are nt ard, with only me, jojo and small boon, generally we were able to get things done... I guess they understand that when things have to be done, it have to be done. Hmm... Lets see how as the days pass, will the situation get better.

lol, oink hospitalised for dunno wad chest infection or something... i think i'll go visit him before i book in. But there isnt much time left tho... i guess i should start packing up now.

Whee monday alot of ppl off, tuesday and wed they also nt ard... BUT NEED TO CLEAR SOC BY DEC 7!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11

20sec only.... can be done..... Damn, why combat engineer must do soc =(

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2008-11-28T19:50:00.003+08:00

Argh have to book in later tonight although its friday becos i failed SOC T_T. Only by 20sec sian... Unit life finally officially started today as me, jojo and small boon took our platoon man out to do daily chores for the first time. More about that tml...

Haiz tml very busy and packed... dunno how it will turn out, later all the plans messed up and end up none get completed.

Yay gonna get air-con soon, old 1 spoil. Hope dun move house after we change aircon like last time.

Oh that reminds me about our bunk. Have i ever mentioned hw much mosqutio our camp has? Fucking lot sia. I wake up like dunno million times throughout the night becos of mosquito bites everywhere. Past 2 days my forehead swell like fuck cos i wrap my whole body with my blanket. But somehow i still get biten all over my arms in the end usually.

And where is my POP pictures~ Haiz tml den find ppl la.

8pm liao. 1 more hour must go back camp le, time to change clothes liao T_T...

Anime Festival Asia 2008

2008-11-23T20:23:00.006+08:00

Whee go attend AFA today. Wasnt like wad i expected, didn enjoy myself as much as i thought i would. Disappointed by some nonsense cosplay act on stage lol, didn find any figurine that i like, stuff. But ok la, the trip was still quite fun to some extent, definetly could be better.

8.30pm now. Book in 11.59pm, 1 hour travelling time, 2 hours left.

Walk walk see see, gt see the lucky star figurine set that i wan, but its $190 T_T....

See several ppl cosplay. Wah vampire knight the school uniform damn hot.

See the cosplay mania event. Gt ultraman, code gease ah blah blah. Quite interesting la, but it was spoiled by some nonsense performance. The tifa 1 i really dunno wad she doing, cosplay tifa but sing lion king songs.

Den after that took some pictures of ppl cosplay. All the picture taken by my frens, i too long nvr use camera liao, very paiseh to take picture lol.

Gt this very cool gundam

Amu-chan frm shugo chara

Some chara frm trinity blood, the costume very detailed sia

Vampire knight whee

Byakuya and Gin?

Some 1337 drawing skillz

Some1 cosplaying konata cosplaying haruhi

Souleater

Like alot of fun sia when do with ur frens. Next year i really wanna cosplay also.

Aiyo bbq haven settle sia. Next week la...

Must call every1 tell them bbq change date also....

Aiyo aiyo busy busy..... As always, so many things to do... but so lil time...

The search for fortune arterial translation

2008-10-27T19:11:00.001+08:00

While searching, i soon pian read some of the blog comments about the story, which was den i was reminded of how wonderful it was. Even tho i was depending on some nonsense translating prog. After i pass out, i shall complete the game. But fuck, i cant find any translation of any sort for it raaaa.

FEW MORE DAYS! FEW MORE DAYS!

2008-10-27T16:13:00.003+08:00

Yay complete whitehorse. That exercise was quite nonsense, very slack, which means bad news for us. We will prolly have another exercise next time to make up for our lack of experience in boat shitz.

And oh btw, a roughly a quarter of my life is gone =(. I wish to live forever.

About lifespan, a number of ppl i come across in my life mentioned that they dun wan to live too long. Reasons like being tired of living, tired of seeing the world, being old, having to cry for the death of ur close ones. If given the choice, i would definitely want to live forever, being conscience, being healthy enuff to walk and eat and shit and pee and roll on the floor. I wan to explore the world, see every corner of it and do all sorts of things. And everyday new things emerge. New books, new music, new people, new weapons, new technology, new games, new tricks blah blah blah...

Haiz but how can that be possible. I would be glad if i could just live at least 100 years old.

Wad kind of life do i wan to lead? Rich life? Making ends life? Part-time worker? Rural farmer? Relac countryside/kampong? We dun jus have a time limit, we only gt 1 life to live.

So after ns.... Wad do i wanna do?

Next time when i have a child ( assume hes a boy for convience ), i will instill military discipline since young. He will nt be exposed to freak cartoons like spongebob, cow and chicken and stuff. He can however watch japanese animation =D. By primary 4, i will also lead him to watch discovery channel, history channel those nonsense. I will try to create the enviroment at home such that messing with the computer is discouraged, there will be other things to do. By secondary 1, he will start to figure out wad he wants in life. By sec 3 he will start to work towards his goal, even if it means he have to stop studying cos it is irrelavant to his goal.

He shall have a certain degree of freedom, which is relativly quite wide, but it will be governed by strict rules and my orders.

It looks like i need to have alot of time in my hands if thats how i wan to develop my child. I guess my goal have to be such that, to be able to make enuff $$ to support a family and obtain time for the monitoring of the development of my child.

Or maybe i jus go overseas, somewhere where land and rent is cheap; low cost of living, open a cafe, make simply jus enuff for food and pay my bills, and relac for the rest of my life.

Hmmm....

Few more weeks to pop......

2008-10-19T19:17:00.003+08:00

Army keeps me occupied so much. Sometimes when i get a few rare moments to jus daydream safely ( in boat we have turn outs so safe-rest-time is almost none, i have to trick myself its safe to get a good night rest everyday ), i think about life after army.

And i cant see wads ahead.

I am unclear of wad i wanna do, how i wanna do.

I believe i said that before, but yea this issue have been popping up my head now and den.

I really need to sort things out and organise my thoughts after i pass out.

book in 9.30, reach by 9.00, leave by 8.00, now is 7.25

Oh ya goin out to field and sea to play frm monday to wed next week. Fuck.

*edit* and oh, tropic thunder is a great movie. Must watch. Im watching it again next week prolly haha.

Fuck everytime during last few moments at home, my psp jus plays to zanarkand... Argh, hates this feeling.

Time is relative

2008-10-05T15:18:00.003+08:00

Now that i think about it, time flies. So much have happened since the last entry. But den again, when im back in camp, i seems that my trainee life nvr ends.. When will i finally pass out as a 3SG? But i shouldn be complaining, leonerd and yangxi in armour dunno hw many years trainee liao lol, but good for them, they passing out next week i think.

After ETI in neesoon camp, i went to VTW at seletar camp, supposed to be M3G coy. But i expressed interest in BOAT and now here i am, in boat coy. Will write more stuff about it next time after i pass out.

Caught up truckloads of manga over the past 3 weeks and completed several series.

School rumble ending was nonsense, so wonder ppl complain about it, its like as if the entire story nvr progressed since 100 chapters ago. Blah.

Mxo ending was acceptable and rather well done, finished in a similar manner as pretty face.

Tho both SR and mxo ended prematurely, one ended up as crap and makes u wanna bash some author up, while the other makes u wanna beg the author for more.

Also completed 2 short series, Bitter Virgin and Parallel, good for a short read.

Fuck 4pm liao, only a few more hours to book in. Imma chiong 30 more chpts and sleep liao and prepare for the crazy boat. This week should be xiong =(

BSLC was long over!

2008-08-29T23:46:00.003+08:00

lol the last post was 1 month ago. I dunno if i hav said it before, but army has jus been so busy, i cant wait till my trainee life is over.

Finished all da field camps and the hellish 28km. Charlie with the +++field pack and crazy pace and shortened rest. Finish like gonna die liao. But im surprised that i actually do complete it. After all the talk about falling out. Thx to jiayi for dragging me for last few 3+km =D till compass test there =D.

I gt mixed feelings about charlie. The instructors there some are nice, some are evil. The way they work also seems less effective compared to other coy. Although generally it was quite a memorable experience, in both ways, I was quite delighted that finally fucked off frm charlie, but i miss the ppl there, i miss sispec, i miss guard duty desk job =(. I dunno if the above paragraph was oxymoronic, cos i really dunno to say if i hate charlie or like charlie.

Den i gt posted to COMBAT ENGINEER, supposedly i will specialise to bridging engineer, goin to either bridging coy, playing with the latest bridge which cost 2 university, or go the boat coy which supposed to be good life.

7 weeks of specialise training, i wonder wad they do sia. Gt so much things to learn meh?

Before that, now im at neesoon camp, goin thru the basic training of 3 weeks 2 days. No block leave =(. So my first week i didn have any shoes and slipper, i simply wore boots the whole day for the week. Den i also no towel, so i walked out of bath naked, basically i didn bring many other basic necessity item also la.

6th floor sia, must climb, very tiring.

Next time i shall talk about this new camp, which i will be leaving in a lil more den a week's time, well thats assuming i dun ooc =D.

Ok time to sleep. Next week CSM =D

entering 6? week of bslc

2008-07-27T04:05:00.002+08:00

Lol i realised i haven blogged anything about army since pop. charlie bslc alot stuff ah, very rushed, no much time to relac and stuff, i have to like stay up late till 4am like today to get a chance to blog.

When i received my posting, my intention was to get out of that place as fast as possible, jus like the start of bmt. But like wad happen in the end, i found myself enjoying it surprisingly.

Compared to hawk coy, charlie is much stricter, more xiong, less admin time. Charlie isnt as crazy as we all tot it was, it was only the first hell week which was nonsense. Tho time to time the sgts can still fuck us up like nonsense, but thats only when we deserve it, well most of the times...

Our schedule is first 4 weeks in camp, next 4 weeks mostly outfield, which means the outfield phase have started.

The last 2 outfield experience wasnt so pleasent, but i welcomed the challenge.

And oh did u know? i gt a silver for IPPT/NAPFA!!!

Which means i am 1 step closer to aslc........

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

MP or signals plz save me

Neways it was really amazing that i gt a silver for ippt, my 2.4km from 18mins to 16mins to 14mins to 12.10 to 11.29? Silver timing jiu dui liao. I nvr imagined that 1 day i could actually pass running. At the end of bmt i had a pleasant shock and now i dunno how the fuck i actually ran 11.29.

I hate running.

Fuck bslc is ending soon, i think i might stay in camp over the weekend to enjoy the bunk before its over. BUT NO, dun post me to aslc!!!!!!!!!!!1

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2008-06-29T16:46:00.001+08:00

*note* next week continue to retrieve photos frm feb 2007

WHY?

2008-06-23T00:55:00.003+08:00

Given my short term memory, i cannot describe the importance of these pictures to me. No storing in cds, printing is the way. Fuck i'll visit the photoshop once a month frm now on.

Hello sispec

2008-06-22T21:57:00.002+08:00

Firstly, i realised i dun know where my a levels cert are. But i do know we haven gotten the laminated one, well at least i haven. But there isnt much of a use getting it since it has got crappy results lol.

Den i was thinkin about life after ns. Continue study? Go poly? SIM? Australia? Sign on? Start business? After being distracted from reality for 3 months i am unsure of my direction again. Must take note to find a day and think about the future, now wad i should care about is packing my bag.

And fuck, my computer so happens to keep playing those emo songs.

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Whee wad time is it now? Woo after 5 hours i finished packing my bag and arrange my room.

Now i have another reason to get sad about. I lost my pictures, all of em, the 2nd time now.

The first time, was cos my hp crashed and the pictures, a year worth of pictures all gone.

But luckily i blogged, so i upload SOME of those pictures.

So i tot i learnt my lesson, so i upload every single picture everytime to my computer. To my old laptop.

I gt a new laptop. I lend my sister my old 1. Some time later, it couldn start up so she reformatted it.

Luckily it was on my new laptop. Den it became my laptop's turn.

And now when i wan to backup the data. I cant find it. Somehow its jus not there when its suppose to be there.

So i have jus lost 4 years worth of pictures.

This time, i will periodically burn my pictures into disk. Lets see wad happen this time, see if my house gets burn down or my cd get decomposed or maybe i sit on em.

Im so sad now.

Really sad.
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This sucks.

pop lo

2008-06-15T00:17:00.007+08:00

That reminds me, i haven return to tekong to collect my gortex jacket yet =/....

BMT was pretty much a enjoyable experience. Get to know alot of people, good people and trashs of societies, gays and freaks, wayang and slackers, whiners and...............

Tho there were brief periods of emomomo moments, but at least there were people there for me =D and in the end i still made it through =D.

I entered bmt as 80kg, now im 72 or less.
First 2.4km run timing - 15+mins, but in the end i manage to pass by 10 sec woohoo 12min10sec xD
Before - 3 pull ups, After - 10 pull ups

I rmb on the first day of field camp, after the crazy 8km rm, so fucking tired, but still have to set up basha, and dig trenches. Dun get much rest and we get punished often. Plus ppl attitude me, making it hard for me to cont and last throughout the field camp. Den dunno for some reason, i jus managed to survive through, only when the commanders told us that it was the last day, den did i realise that i actually made it through.

Shat on the 3rd day, at the 2nd campsite. Lucky for me i shat when the latrines were fresh, no much shit, no much flies, but i gt myself several mosquito bites on my ass.

Then the only other major event for me, da 24km rm. Bloody hell, the first 4km was some tough fuck, i seriously wanted to jus fall out and fuck care the shit. But thx to many platoon mates, they pushed me on and helped me along. And somehow i manage to survive the terrible first 12km of uneven terrain path. The 2nd half was walking on tar road, but blisters and shits start to come in. But i cant stop now, especially when the toughest part of the 24km rm was complete.

And when we finally completed it, that felt like some real accomplishment. And the next day every1 either have thigh abrasion or extreme blisters for my case =D. Fuck, how are we gonna fight a war like this? Singapore is doomed if she depend on us lol.

Alot of events nvr record down, all forget liao sia.. Very regret, if i get into cmd skool, i'll be sure to keep a journal.

Den POP LO~

Rain whee~ Luckily parade wasnt cancelled or i would wack some ass. Thx to the rain, it was very cooling, very much better than having the sun burning our skin.

The trained soldier

The trained anneh

The coolest shit ever..... The BMTC ROAR!!!!!!!!!!!111

POP LO

The Trained Solders

Coy 2IC, 2LT Varun, after kena taupok

Hawk Coy..... Such a nice place....

I need some roti john.

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2008-05-31T23:48:00.002+08:00

Due to the large amt of confinements i get, my time in the outside world is very limited, i think this is my 2nd or 3rd time booking out on friday... and next week is the last book out of bmt liao lol.

bmt wasnt as bad and unbearable as i tot it would be, the only high key events left would be 24km RM and POP~

Fuck i haven take an att C before, and im gonna pop soon. Can i get a fever on monday plz? Even if i get so sick i cant get out of bed and relac, the very fact i get att C also will make me happy.

So excited about where i would get posted to. But i jus wish i dun get some fucked up shit like recourse bmt. Well the only thing i fail is ippt... Storeman~ =D

Argh this should be enough, time for body maintenance. Damn i love admin time.

Army

2008-04-05T23:20:00.002+08:00

Reaching the end of the ptp phase, tempo and intensity gonna step up soon. Oh and also the april ppl be joining us whee. Lookin forward to seeing more ppl. Mass orgy.

Lazy to down pes liao. I believe i can take the training la. ITs nt very tough. But maybe 24km and soc might turn out to be killers. Nvm la, if needed can get att B =D.

And oh, the CSM dun like me sia. Sian den next time i request things he might be biased. Heck, post me to be a storeman =D.

Lazy to blog liao la, wan go sleep. Ah my comfy bed.

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2008-03-21T13:26:00.001+08:00

Its 10mins long, but its pretty funny. I totally enjoyed the entire video.

Raa-o-logy

AFAX 2010 2nd day

AFAX 2010

WHERE ARE YOU?! TAN TECK LONG

ktv and it's etiquettes

how would u respond?

i learned something new

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scary ending scene of Watanagashi-hen

i think i replayed this more den 30 times

a certain type of ppl that i dun like.

why are ppl so evil

why?

baka testo anime vs novel

All these effort , wad for?

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I hate talking to old ppl, well most of em.

Lighting Thief Review and my general thoughts about movie.

some funny shit i saw ytd.

Gintama 53

Seletar camp's fave Ah ho at taman jurong!

I - II *spoilers up to EP05* ANALYSIS of UMINEKO NO NAKU KORO NI EP01 : Legend of The Golden Witch (anime version) part 2

I - I *spoilers up to EP05* ANALYSIS of UMINEKO NO NAKU KORO NI EP01 : Legend of The Golden Witch (anime version) part 1

Umineko no naku koro ni EP 05 : End of The Golden Witch

Umineko : Witches and Woodlands

umineko ep 05 comments as im reading.

i love being at home.

TIPS: Anti-Mystery vs. Anti-Fantasy

!!! something i realised in Umineko EP 05

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Umineko no naku koro ni EP 04 : Alliance of the golden witch

Im being lame.

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Umineko EP 3 ( visual novel )

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Thoughts on Umineko no Naku Koro Ni Episode 2 ( VISUAL NOVEL ) *SPOILERS*

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First clubbing sightseeing

nice sad music video ( vocaloid )

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I think balithai is bad.

I dun wanna see wads beyond the corner.....

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perspective, relativity

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AOH ended.

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argh.

Must pen/type down my thoughts before my head explode.

Did i lose?

whats next

i made the same mistake twic

i need slaves.

imba drawing

Progress III

My PROgress II

my progress

tired.

suzumiya haruhi-chan 24

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Many ways to do things, different results different futures.

1 year old.

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BURNOUT

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Spring Cleaning

NTM

Code Geass R2

I - II spoilers up to EP05 ANALYSIS of UMINEKO NO NAKU KORO NI EP01 : Legend of The Golden Witch (anime version) part 2

I - I spoilers up to EP05 ANALYSIS of UMINEKO NO NAKU KORO NI EP01 : Legend of The Golden Witch (anime version) part 1

Thoughts on Umineko no Naku Koro Ni Episode 2 ( VISUAL NOVEL ) SPOILERS